Let's bend some reality and muse randomly - DMSI 3.1

[SargeMaximus]

Unfortunately will have to get you to edit that part though, rule 4

Awww.

Oh well, glad I saw it.

[Have at ye]

Can't shake the feeling I am in the home-stretch, healing-wise. Like I've found the thing that needs fixing to make it all right in the end. It's like you've been recovering from an injury but you are at the point when you can feel that you are almost there and getting better extremely fast, day after day, almost ready to get back on the pitch. It is an empowering feeling.

Like a paradigm shift in beliefs - from that which I thought to be right to that which is actually true. And then refusing to accept anything else but what I've always been driven to become.

Then it's clearing, and then it's time to rock.

Professional developments are gearing up to divert my attention from the healing, though - at least my conscious attention. This, also, is perhaps for the better.

This DMSI is one hell of a program, now that I see how much and what it has actually been doing these past four months. Chapeau bas, Monsieur Shannon!

[Have at ye]

Let's have a random quote from a Rule 4 title by Fred Nietzsche, the whiny philosopher:

What is good?—All that heightens the feeling of power, the will to power, power itself in man. What is bad?—All that proceeds from weakness. What is happiness?—The feeling that power increases—that a resistance is overcome.

[Have at ye]

Hmm. Experiencing a pretty strong, full-brain headache while listening to my loops today. It could possibly be overload, as it feels similar, but I really haven't been listening to that many loops per day lately (4). So it might be resistance. The headache is unpleasant. Better stop resisting, then, oy!

EDIT: Hmm, it's mostly frontal lobe. Overload is usually deeper down. So it's probably resistance. Ouch.

[Have at ye]

Yup, it was resistance. The headache has lessened now, but now I'm excruciatingly tired/worn out, and my bodyheat is extremely high. Think I'm gonna go for a late night walk.

(The headache was excruciatingly strong at times, migraine-like. Haven't had one of this strength since at least ver 2.5, if ever)

[Have at ye]

The series of concerts I had lined up fell through. Pah. Not worried too much, as the pay and prestige wasn't that great anyway; just something to do.

I did finally find a great, inexpensive place to practice my singing in comfort the 3 times a week I need at a minimum. Score!

Despite the fact that I haven't been practicing too diligently lately, I'm in pretty good fracking form if I do say so myself. Tons of progress.

Singing, as always, makes me feel great.

Current plan: continuing with ver. A, 2-4 loops per day, until Spetember, then a full month of ver. B - which will make it 6 full months of DMSI 3.1 - and then we shall see; probably a break and then a switch to MLS, unless DMSI3.2 is out or close to completion, or perhaps pressing on with 3.1 if I deem it the thing to do.

Gonna purchase MLS come September, as I did get an urge to switch subs while recovering from that dreadful resistance headache yesterday, so I'll buy it in a month to cut off an avenue of spontaneous self-sabotage, just in case.

[Have at ye]

Hmm, been doing 2 loops these past three days - and feeling the resistance headache come up again - lightly throughout the day, and now coming on stronger, on the left side of my brain and threatening to spread. I'm about to start listening to my loops. I'll try 4 tonight, see if it either makes it stronger or breaks through. Consciously I do not really know what this could be about. Oh well. If I should, I think I'll let me know, sooner or later. Let's get the DMSI on.

(EDIT: Should push come to shove, I'll go back to doing 7 loops - it has succeeded previously in making a breakthrough, but put in me in such an altered state of awareness that I was pretty much unable to focus on anything else besides processing DMSI; the state shift was so strong that I'd be *very* reluctant to, f. in., drive a car, and it held on like this for 2-3 days. The only thing I was good for then was taking long walks, interacting with females, eating like crazy, and maybe reading a book, but very slowly, lol)

(EDIT II: Something actually tells me that the headaches increasing in intensity is, paradoxically, a good sign. The light headaches were too weak for my stubborn self, I think - I have pretty high pain tolerance, so a light headache is like *meh*. When it gets really hurty, I actually have to pay attention to it, and it should, sooner or later, become so uncomfortable for me physically that I will relent and execute whatever I am resisting like an idiot)

UPDATE: OW, my frickin' head, OUCH!

UPDATE II: The headache seems to be withdrawing starting with loop no. 3, now there's a slight morphine drip/high effect instead.

[dissonance]

How often do you get headaches from subs, and how do you know they are caused by subs for sure?

[Have at ye]

How often do you get headaches from subs, and how do you know they are caused by subs for sure?

Normally, I very rarely get headaches (usually only when hungover/seriously dehydrated, lol). I started getting them sometime about the time I started listening to DMSI2.5, and then it turned out Shannon put some scripting in there which makes resistance cause headaches.

[Have at ye]

Time for a musical interlude.

For some reason, I can't stop listening to the song "Walk" by Pantera today. I'm listening to it, thinking of some of the "wonderful" people I know, and keep nodding to myself and thinking "yes, yes, my feelings *exact*" . (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Evc3Xtc84N0)

Also, listening to my loops for the day. Gonna stick to 4.

[Have at ye]

Still doing DMSI ver. A. I missed my loops yesterday because I fell asleep prior to turning them on (oh noes!). So I will maybe do 7 loops tonight to compensate. Or stick to 4. I'll see what my gut says when I get there.

Doing good progress, I think. Felt sad yesterday, but it was, I dunno - a healthy kind of sadness, not the "impotent rage neurotic depression OMG let this end" kind.

BTW., I recently returned to doing intermittent fasting (16h fast/8h food) - I realize that DMSI's energy flooding is mostly food-powered, but I want to get rid of some more flabbity flab. And since DMSI makes my metabolism skyrocket, it's going away extremely fast. I figure that even though it might not be the most powerful source of energy for the aura itself, I can use the energy stored as fat for the purposes of DMSIng anyway. It feels good actually, and is relevant to long-term goals of the program.

EDIT: Also, adding Universal Detox to my list of subs to buy in September, heh. So many goodies lately.

[Dr. Strangelove]

Same here mate, I'm back on Warrior Diet (20 hrs fasting, 4 hrs overeating). Once I weathered through first couple of days nervousness and hunger pangs, it now feels good and I do not miss sluggishness of eating for comfort. Two weeks running, no weight loss (I don't want to), great detox for the body, don't even need coffee.

[Have at ye]

Been doing 7 loops/day since Monday, will try to keep it up like this until the end of the week, if feasible. Otherwise, I'll go back to 4 (or 3, as I accidentally mistyped 7 as 3, and have had this number of loops occurring to me intuitively several times already, heh). Still ver. A.

Lowered the volume back again (foobar says -25db), the resistance headaches seem to have passed pretty much altogether, so they might have been related to the volume.

Feeling pretty good albeit ambivalent at times. Some things I have been resolving lately seem to be pretty much done with, but still come up in my thoughts every now and again.

Having some pretty... strange ideas regarding finding and, urm, schooling (to put it delicately) women to have sexual relationships with. It is not the first time ideas of this kind have come up in my mind - they were quite prominent for a time when I was using ver. B. Thus it would seem it is an avenue possibly worth exploring. I shan't go into details.

[Have at ye]

Aaaand I think I've finally found the optimal number of loops and volume for ver. A - 3 loops, -25db (so, basically standard baseline settings + 1 loop ). I am basing this on gut feeling + the sensations and effect I've experienced whilst and after listening to this particular number of loops - it feels like, upon being listened, the script goes straight to execution, and feels extremely good; also increased appetite right after, and other wonky sensations implying that stuff is getting done.

With 4, and especially 7 loops, I would get a feeling of heaviness right about the fourth loop, and then I'd need some time (several hours at least) to process before getting to the good stuff. Also - mood swings. With 3 loops it feels like I'm on fire.

We shall see if I'm right in the long run! Hopefully I am.

I've actually been getting healing/clearing-related dreams lately. They're not anything hardcore, so I guess they do not require shielding, albeit they do get unpleasant at times. It's probably related to the fact that I've been listening to DMSI at a very high volume for an extended period of time, so now it has to unwind.

EDIT

Also, just had a thought regarding the Natural Seduction module, affected side.

Now, I've mentioned that certain types of girls do seem to engage in avoidant behavior. I now believe that this might be related to the NS thing. Why? Because playing 'hard-to-get, come and obsess over me, boy'/push-pull kind of thing might be their particular natural seduction response. Who's to blame them, given a clever and pretty enough girl this kind of stuff can be very effective, heh. Ends up netting them tons of orbiters at the very least.