Let's bend some reality and muse randomly - DMSI 3.1

[Have at ye]

I am scared of something regarding sex, and get the occasional fear-reaction when I am about to (to put it bluntly) penetrate a woman with my penis, which sometimes results in erectile dysfunction. Had that as a kid for some time after sexual initiation, then it went away, and after my bout with depression it now comes and it goes. Hmm.

This must be taken care of. The fear reaction must go, it is irrational and stands in the way of achieving the program's goals.

Back on ver. A since yesterday - and will be sticking to it for the foreseeable future. The results are back and plenty of them, things are beginning to kick in for real.

Hey, could you describe more difference you felt between A and B? I stick to A for now but I'm curious!

For me it was like this - mood went down, I would get extremely angry every now and again, physically felt myself resisting the pull of the program (in the gut), the sniper-related state-shift was more pronounced, I would oftentimes feel frustrated and/or impatient regarding various things, especially the goals of the program.

On A I am much more calm and composed, think about the fact that I am listening to the program less, am less anxious to get the results, and the results are gradually trickling in to my conscious reality.

Now I need to cut down on alcohol and nicotine consumption. Been going WAAAY overboard with that lately!