03-06-2017, 04:23 PM
On Day 3. Liking it very much so far.
The improvements to the shielding/masking seem to be working pretty well for me. I am not getting much *static*, so to say, and if it's there, it usually passes quite fast. I have the feeling that I now trust my subconscious with doing its thing, and if there's anything that I should know consciously to work upon, then it will let me know (I'll let me know, lol).
I do not get much in the way of headaches - a hint here or there, but they usually pass pretty quickly, too.
I am noticing that whenever I leave the house to practice or attend rehearsal, I run into at least several girls in whom I am interested sexually, and interact with them to various extents. They all seem to be very much enjoying my presence, too.
I also noticed that whenever I am idling (as in - sitting, lying down, or just standing without doing much), there's this kinda electrical feeling which I feel originating in my feet, and coursing through my body. And it's pretty much always there. Sometimes they become stronger, usually when there's an attractive woman in the vicinity. Sometimes it is accompanied by a noticeable state-shift (I can tell because I get slight visual artifacts when that happens). These might be the snipers!
Sometimes, when that happens, I will get moments of faster heartbeat, indicative of a fight-or-flight reaction/adrenaline surge. But I do not feel the fear consciously.
Sometimes I feel the increased need for sleep, but otherwise I am very much energized all day long. Curiously enough, I sometimes get pangs of really strong hunger (especially whilst listening to the sub), but I do not feel the need to gorge myself and I've been eating rather sparingly these last couple of days. I don't mind all that much, as I've definitely been continuing to lose flab thanks to that.
Singing's going great.
Mood is very stable, calm and confident most of the time.
That's that for now.
The improvements to the shielding/masking seem to be working pretty well for me. I am not getting much *static*, so to say, and if it's there, it usually passes quite fast. I have the feeling that I now trust my subconscious with doing its thing, and if there's anything that I should know consciously to work upon, then it will let me know (I'll let me know, lol).
I do not get much in the way of headaches - a hint here or there, but they usually pass pretty quickly, too.
I am noticing that whenever I leave the house to practice or attend rehearsal, I run into at least several girls in whom I am interested sexually, and interact with them to various extents. They all seem to be very much enjoying my presence, too.
I also noticed that whenever I am idling (as in - sitting, lying down, or just standing without doing much), there's this kinda electrical feeling which I feel originating in my feet, and coursing through my body. And it's pretty much always there. Sometimes they become stronger, usually when there's an attractive woman in the vicinity. Sometimes it is accompanied by a noticeable state-shift (I can tell because I get slight visual artifacts when that happens). These might be the snipers!
Sometimes, when that happens, I will get moments of faster heartbeat, indicative of a fight-or-flight reaction/adrenaline surge. But I do not feel the fear consciously.
Sometimes I feel the increased need for sleep, but otherwise I am very much energized all day long. Curiously enough, I sometimes get pangs of really strong hunger (especially whilst listening to the sub), but I do not feel the need to gorge myself and I've been eating rather sparingly these last couple of days. I don't mind all that much, as I've definitely been continuing to lose flab thanks to that.
Singing's going great.
Mood is very stable, calm and confident most of the time.
That's that for now.
