07-12-2015, 10:36 PM
Day 50 week 7
Resistance is coming up in areas I didn’t even consider until now.
There is a business model that is tangent to something I’m already doing, but I never felt right about pursuing it. It’s not morally wrong or anything; it’s just a very different way of doing things which pulls me way out of my comfort zone for a long term project.
Now I see the profitable nature of that model, and I don’t see it in the same negative way now. I don’t know how to explain it. The discomfort I felt toward it is just gone now. I didn’t even consider my view of it to be resistance, really, but it’s gone and it feels kinda nice lol
Over the past three weeks or so I’ve come to see a sort of cycling happen where 4 – 6 days are pretty solid followed by 1 or 2 days of panic, negativity or general anxiety towards something in my life.
I know this reflects my resistance kicking up, so it’s not a big deal, but I’ve felt this regarding my health, money, relationships, my business and a few other things so far. My metaphor for this is a large rolling pin rubbing out rough lumps in a large sheet of dough. That might sound silly, but each roll over the dough gets something smoothed out. Perhaps not all the lumps in a few rolls, but eventually all the rough spots will be gone. That’s the immediate image I felt when I realized there were cycles to the resistance, anyway.
This week’s resistance was business related as mentioned above, and general life anxiety. I felt the need to reflect over things to make sure I am on track to where I want to go. It was sort of a free hanging anxiety not really aimed at anything in specific, but I felt the deep desire to think about everything that’s happened over the past year to reflect on whether I’m on course or not. I think I’m doing alright though
Resistance is coming up in areas I didn’t even consider until now.
There is a business model that is tangent to something I’m already doing, but I never felt right about pursuing it. It’s not morally wrong or anything; it’s just a very different way of doing things which pulls me way out of my comfort zone for a long term project.
Now I see the profitable nature of that model, and I don’t see it in the same negative way now. I don’t know how to explain it. The discomfort I felt toward it is just gone now. I didn’t even consider my view of it to be resistance, really, but it’s gone and it feels kinda nice lol
Over the past three weeks or so I’ve come to see a sort of cycling happen where 4 – 6 days are pretty solid followed by 1 or 2 days of panic, negativity or general anxiety towards something in my life.
I know this reflects my resistance kicking up, so it’s not a big deal, but I’ve felt this regarding my health, money, relationships, my business and a few other things so far. My metaphor for this is a large rolling pin rubbing out rough lumps in a large sheet of dough. That might sound silly, but each roll over the dough gets something smoothed out. Perhaps not all the lumps in a few rolls, but eventually all the rough spots will be gone. That’s the immediate image I felt when I realized there were cycles to the resistance, anyway.
This week’s resistance was business related as mentioned above, and general life anxiety. I felt the need to reflect over things to make sure I am on track to where I want to go. It was sort of a free hanging anxiety not really aimed at anything in specific, but I felt the deep desire to think about everything that’s happened over the past year to reflect on whether I’m on course or not. I think I’m doing alright though
