04-14-2019, 04:44 AM
Grappling with my very core fears has been no mean feat. At the core my central fear is of meaninglessness and annihilation. I haven't gotten to the bottom of it and potentially there is not bottom or solution. Turns out i'm not the only one with this problem and it's been a key issue for many others.
Without wanting to sound haughty or like this a new idea uniquely discovered by my brilliant mind - the solution that has come to me is to stand honestly and face the possibility of annihilation and vulnerability (whether it be death, or an abstraction from death such as social exclusion, poverty etc.) and proceed in full acceptance. I guess this is what I now understand as 'Courage'. I think it's something most people have a handle on around me, and I judge them negatively for not fixing their flaws before they go out and try to do something good with themselves/their lives. I judge other people's messiness because I haven't previously had the courage to move in spite of imperfection or even in spite of weakness.
Without wanting to sound haughty or like this a new idea uniquely discovered by my brilliant mind - the solution that has come to me is to stand honestly and face the possibility of annihilation and vulnerability (whether it be death, or an abstraction from death such as social exclusion, poverty etc.) and proceed in full acceptance. I guess this is what I now understand as 'Courage'. I think it's something most people have a handle on around me, and I judge them negatively for not fixing their flaws before they go out and try to do something good with themselves/their lives. I judge other people's messiness because I haven't previously had the courage to move in spite of imperfection or even in spite of weakness.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
