03-02-2017, 06:25 AM
Introduction:
I am not one to normally write a thread of this nature, as my personal journey is precisely that - personal. My life experiences lead me to believe that those most interested in sharing their personal thoughts/views/politics/religion/philosophy with you and less inclined for you to share the same with them, and even less inclined to listen with an open mind. And since the only way to correct that societal behavior pattern is to refuse to participate - I hope you understand my reluctance in sharing. My woman is an Irish Catholic girl (non-practicing) from an old Irish family - and she has taught me a thing or two about the benefits of stoic restraint.
Although there are many user journals on the Forum, I find only a few to be personally relatable. This is in no way an indictment against those journals/threads as much as it is an indication of who I am and what my personal perspective is. What is pushing me through my reluctance is the thought that, given the nature of the product I will be writing a journal on and the (assumed) nature of others who may be interested in the same product, it would be selfish to deprive them of my experiences using the product. I don't mean that in an overly-blusterous way - rather that when looking for journals on the product myself I found less first-hand experiences than I would prefer. This becomes even more true as many of the product journals, especially in the Men's section, are aimed at helping those who desire more Alpha status or help approaching/attracting the opposite sex - which is not my personal problem set.
What I Hope To Gain:
LTU 3.1 5G emphasizes the following on the product page.
Self Esteem - not a target area but hey, could always use a little improvement, no?
Self Control - big target for me. Not the physical aspects so much as the mental. Help 'keeping my crazy locked up' is kind of what I'm going for.
Self Image - after failing in career areas I could definitely use a boost. As I continue to find/hold/succeed at a career a good self-image is vital.
Self Respect - not much of a target, but never hurts.
Self Discipline - yes please. I'm borderline ADHD with a high (tested) IQ, I need more discipline to make it to 'the next step'.
Positive Attitude - add a family genetic trait of depression highs-lows in the mix and yes, I could use this.
Positive Thinking - as above - yes please.
Sense of Self Worth - could use some 'spit and polish'.
Happiness & Joy - never hurts to be happy. Positivity attracts and negativity repels.
Peace and Serenity - on a concious/surface level not a rproblem. Deep down inside where I cage my personal Demons, yeah I could use some.
Overcoming procrastination - yes please. A second helping would be nice.
Overcoming anxiety - I just need a little nudge to get me over the hump, then I'm fine. Hopefully I get that.
Self reliance - have that in spades already. But tbh I 'get by with a little help from my friends'. "No Man is an island"
Liking yourself - mostly I'm OK with that already.
Loving yourself - can use a bit of that.
Being a good person - I'd like to think I'm a good person. Then again I'm sure Hitler's Mom thought he was a wonderful son, so idk.
Feeling good about yourself - at this time I could use some of this. I'm in a pretty bad place right now.
Winner’s mindset & attitude - my pragmatic realism definitely gets in the way of what is needed in a consumer-capitalist society to achieve what, by the metrics of said society, would be considered a 'win'. So yes, I probably could use some of this.
Doing the right thing - not been much of a problem for me.
Taking care of yourself - was already pushing myself in this area about the time I started using the product, but keeping up with it is a goal in and of itself.
Success programming - not sure what this is but I believe I could use some?
Accepting responsibility for yourself - already there.
Ego balancing - what do you do when you're consistently the smartest guy in the room and everyone knows it? When you see the probable or even inevitable outcomes given the obvious (at least to me) parameters before everyone else? You become a 'know-it-all' kind of jerk that alienates himself and fails at life. Not because you are incapable, but because everyone else is less-so. Not because you're really a jerk, but because you spend life with what amounts to mental high schoolers and you simply get tired of explaining things on such a low mental level. It's not that I don't value others and what they bring to the table so much as I need to make a big conscious effort to make sure they know it, and that is simply exhausting. So yes, dear God yes, please let this product help me balance my ego and become more 'likable' to others.
Being fun and fun to be around - could use some of this. "y so serious?" definitely pertains to me.
Enjoying socializing with others, and doing so more easily - I hate being around people. The bigger the crowd the less enjoyable. Especially those key career forced networking/socializing events that are so critical to success in modern society. I could use this, definitely.
Enjoying life - "Happiness is not gaining that which you desire, but learning to be satisfied with what you already have" That said, I could use a little more work on enjoyment of what I already have.
Overcoming Guilt, Shame & Fear - yes please. I feel guilt over where I find myself. I'm ashamed that I ended up here despite my abilities and skills. I'm afraid I'll never get out of this rut.
Improve your health - already working on it, but more motivation to continue to do so certainly can't hurt.
Wisdom improvement - I could get into this but I won't, due to restrictions on discussing religion on these forums. But by and large I feel I'm OK, though wisdom is one thing I feel you can always use more of.
Maturity improvement - I feel I'm pretty mature in most ways. Idk, we'll see?
Self validation - I'm used to 'no one gets me'. It would be nice if I could experience life on the other side of the fence, or at least feel like I'm on the other side of the fence. Reality is a matter of perspective, and I suppose I could use some help changing my perspective.
Self forgiveness - on a mental level I'm OK with this. But deep down inside there are times when past failures or hardships replay in my mind like a video loop reminding me of how I botched the whole thing up. That particular Demon gets out of his cage a little too often, to the point I manifest some physical behaviors that are hard to hide. No, I'm not 'cutting' or performing any version of self-harm - but yes I could do with a healthy dose of self forgiveness and letting go. It's a block for me that impedes forward progression and needs removal.
I am not one to normally write a thread of this nature, as my personal journey is precisely that - personal. My life experiences lead me to believe that those most interested in sharing their personal thoughts/views/politics/religion/philosophy with you and less inclined for you to share the same with them, and even less inclined to listen with an open mind. And since the only way to correct that societal behavior pattern is to refuse to participate - I hope you understand my reluctance in sharing. My woman is an Irish Catholic girl (non-practicing) from an old Irish family - and she has taught me a thing or two about the benefits of stoic restraint.
Although there are many user journals on the Forum, I find only a few to be personally relatable. This is in no way an indictment against those journals/threads as much as it is an indication of who I am and what my personal perspective is. What is pushing me through my reluctance is the thought that, given the nature of the product I will be writing a journal on and the (assumed) nature of others who may be interested in the same product, it would be selfish to deprive them of my experiences using the product. I don't mean that in an overly-blusterous way - rather that when looking for journals on the product myself I found less first-hand experiences than I would prefer. This becomes even more true as many of the product journals, especially in the Men's section, are aimed at helping those who desire more Alpha status or help approaching/attracting the opposite sex - which is not my personal problem set.
What I Hope To Gain:
LTU 3.1 5G emphasizes the following on the product page.
Self Esteem - not a target area but hey, could always use a little improvement, no?
Self Control - big target for me. Not the physical aspects so much as the mental. Help 'keeping my crazy locked up' is kind of what I'm going for.
Self Image - after failing in career areas I could definitely use a boost. As I continue to find/hold/succeed at a career a good self-image is vital.
Self Respect - not much of a target, but never hurts.
Self Discipline - yes please. I'm borderline ADHD with a high (tested) IQ, I need more discipline to make it to 'the next step'.
Positive Attitude - add a family genetic trait of depression highs-lows in the mix and yes, I could use this.
Positive Thinking - as above - yes please.
Sense of Self Worth - could use some 'spit and polish'.
Happiness & Joy - never hurts to be happy. Positivity attracts and negativity repels.
Peace and Serenity - on a concious/surface level not a rproblem. Deep down inside where I cage my personal Demons, yeah I could use some.
Overcoming procrastination - yes please. A second helping would be nice.
Overcoming anxiety - I just need a little nudge to get me over the hump, then I'm fine. Hopefully I get that.
Self reliance - have that in spades already. But tbh I 'get by with a little help from my friends'. "No Man is an island"
Liking yourself - mostly I'm OK with that already.
Loving yourself - can use a bit of that.
Being a good person - I'd like to think I'm a good person. Then again I'm sure Hitler's Mom thought he was a wonderful son, so idk.
Feeling good about yourself - at this time I could use some of this. I'm in a pretty bad place right now.
Winner’s mindset & attitude - my pragmatic realism definitely gets in the way of what is needed in a consumer-capitalist society to achieve what, by the metrics of said society, would be considered a 'win'. So yes, I probably could use some of this.
Doing the right thing - not been much of a problem for me.
Taking care of yourself - was already pushing myself in this area about the time I started using the product, but keeping up with it is a goal in and of itself.
Success programming - not sure what this is but I believe I could use some?
Accepting responsibility for yourself - already there.
Ego balancing - what do you do when you're consistently the smartest guy in the room and everyone knows it? When you see the probable or even inevitable outcomes given the obvious (at least to me) parameters before everyone else? You become a 'know-it-all' kind of jerk that alienates himself and fails at life. Not because you are incapable, but because everyone else is less-so. Not because you're really a jerk, but because you spend life with what amounts to mental high schoolers and you simply get tired of explaining things on such a low mental level. It's not that I don't value others and what they bring to the table so much as I need to make a big conscious effort to make sure they know it, and that is simply exhausting. So yes, dear God yes, please let this product help me balance my ego and become more 'likable' to others.
Being fun and fun to be around - could use some of this. "y so serious?" definitely pertains to me.
Enjoying socializing with others, and doing so more easily - I hate being around people. The bigger the crowd the less enjoyable. Especially those key career forced networking/socializing events that are so critical to success in modern society. I could use this, definitely.
Enjoying life - "Happiness is not gaining that which you desire, but learning to be satisfied with what you already have" That said, I could use a little more work on enjoyment of what I already have.
Overcoming Guilt, Shame & Fear - yes please. I feel guilt over where I find myself. I'm ashamed that I ended up here despite my abilities and skills. I'm afraid I'll never get out of this rut.
Improve your health - already working on it, but more motivation to continue to do so certainly can't hurt.
Wisdom improvement - I could get into this but I won't, due to restrictions on discussing religion on these forums. But by and large I feel I'm OK, though wisdom is one thing I feel you can always use more of.
Maturity improvement - I feel I'm pretty mature in most ways. Idk, we'll see?
Self validation - I'm used to 'no one gets me'. It would be nice if I could experience life on the other side of the fence, or at least feel like I'm on the other side of the fence. Reality is a matter of perspective, and I suppose I could use some help changing my perspective.
Self forgiveness - on a mental level I'm OK with this. But deep down inside there are times when past failures or hardships replay in my mind like a video loop reminding me of how I botched the whole thing up. That particular Demon gets out of his cage a little too often, to the point I manifest some physical behaviors that are hard to hide. No, I'm not 'cutting' or performing any version of self-harm - but yes I could do with a healthy dose of self forgiveness and letting go. It's a block for me that impedes forward progression and needs removal.
"If all you do is focus on the PROBLEMS, you will never be able to clearly see the SOLUTIONS."