09-29-2016, 05:49 AM
Stage rest Day 23:
I'm impressed that it seems SM3 is still clearing things out and dealing with things. At least it seems that I'm improving still. I had some tough strange dreams, I was a baby and there were some kind of deep discussion of not wanting the child or something similar.
During the last few days I noticed a lot of people staring at me unusually compared to before. It was more pronounced. Also I noticed a lot guys nodded when I let them pass (driving) but in an exaggerated way like I gave them something special.
I also noticed a lot kids staring at me, one even looked at me like he was impressed by how I dressed because he look down then at my torso then my face.
I didn't go out anywhere useful to meet girls though just buying some stuff at different supermarket.
It seems my fear went down again too, I'm more carefree. Overall it seems I was getting better during that resting period than stage 6.
I didn't eat for 5 days for a fast a week ago maybe it's linked to that also. I have been eating only veggies for now, with a bit of meat when I couldn't do otherwise.
To not eat for 5 days was intense, at the end I was so much into food that I was watching new recipes on YouTube, and that's when I couldn't hold it anymore.
I'm going to start DMSI in a week or during this week I didn't decided yet. I don't regret that I made a pause, it seems SM3 went deeper thanks to that.
I'm still with my current girlfriend, nothing changed for now. I'm wondering how DMSI is going to affect her.
I'm impressed that it seems SM3 is still clearing things out and dealing with things. At least it seems that I'm improving still. I had some tough strange dreams, I was a baby and there were some kind of deep discussion of not wanting the child or something similar.
During the last few days I noticed a lot of people staring at me unusually compared to before. It was more pronounced. Also I noticed a lot guys nodded when I let them pass (driving) but in an exaggerated way like I gave them something special.
I also noticed a lot kids staring at me, one even looked at me like he was impressed by how I dressed because he look down then at my torso then my face.
I didn't go out anywhere useful to meet girls though just buying some stuff at different supermarket.
It seems my fear went down again too, I'm more carefree. Overall it seems I was getting better during that resting period than stage 6.
I didn't eat for 5 days for a fast a week ago maybe it's linked to that also. I have been eating only veggies for now, with a bit of meat when I couldn't do otherwise.
To not eat for 5 days was intense, at the end I was so much into food that I was watching new recipes on YouTube, and that's when I couldn't hold it anymore.
I'm going to start DMSI in a week or during this week I didn't decided yet. I don't regret that I made a pause, it seems SM3 went deeper thanks to that.
I'm still with my current girlfriend, nothing changed for now. I'm wondering how DMSI is going to affect her.
