06-17-2016, 07:40 AM
(This post was last modified: 06-17-2016, 07:44 AM by JackOfHearts.)
Stage 4 day 17:
I don't know if it's my perception but the forum seems full of BS right now. It's like there is no usefulness in most post I see. Lots of arguments, thread derailing, pick up stuff, people constantly asking irrelevant thing in the Shannon discussion thread, etc.
Might be SM3 programming.
Besides all this I went on a date with a girl recently, but I don't really want to talk about it as it doesn't even seem really related to SM3. Though SM3 definitely had a effect on the way I dealt with this girl. I don't want to talk about it because I'm realizing more and more that I shouldn't talk about those personal subject like this.
One thing I realized after this date is how much what a girl say can be off the reality. I knew her personality before I met her, better than herself I think. But I still subconsciously adapted to what she said, at least a minimum, though SM3 seems to have reduce that part.
The next 3 days after the date I realized that a girl even if she says she is a feminist which usually like to play tough/masculine will expect that the men do all the work of seduction, attraction, sex, acting, showing interest, take risk. And that she will take absolutely no risk, but here absolutely none. To the extent that the man has to completely leave her no chance of escape during the sex act. Which means that she prefer to have no choice so she can put all the consequence and responsibility on the man. What someone would call a rape. She is looking for a rape literally, without knowing it of course, its her subconscious. But basically after investigating her mind and her behavior I realized she wanted me to put her in that position because she showed no sign of interest when I gave her full sign of interest like kissing her. She wanted me to fu** her but without telling me anything even with body language or behavior, I realized that after we talk through text messages the next day.
It's crazy how contradictory women are in their mind. This is a woman who is really feminine, has a very feminine core personality but think she is a feminist (feminist that play masculine role).
Just after writing about that I realized she is not the only one who had rapist fantasies. 2 out 3 girls I met did the same thing. It's not really rape because she want it but it seems like a rape because she play fools and don't want to reveal her feeling, her attraction. And it was even more crazy with this last girl because she almost didn't reveal anything with body language and I know I'm very good at body language now.
So ultimately that means to satisfy some girl needs you have to play the rapist role. The more feminine she is the more likely she will want that you take that role. How contradictory is that? if I ask those girls about rape they will frown like crazy and give crazy hate speech about rapist when actually they want you to play that role. And most of the time you will play it without being aware that you are doing it
I don't know if it's my perception but the forum seems full of BS right now. It's like there is no usefulness in most post I see. Lots of arguments, thread derailing, pick up stuff, people constantly asking irrelevant thing in the Shannon discussion thread, etc.
Might be SM3 programming.
Besides all this I went on a date with a girl recently, but I don't really want to talk about it as it doesn't even seem really related to SM3. Though SM3 definitely had a effect on the way I dealt with this girl. I don't want to talk about it because I'm realizing more and more that I shouldn't talk about those personal subject like this.
One thing I realized after this date is how much what a girl say can be off the reality. I knew her personality before I met her, better than herself I think. But I still subconsciously adapted to what she said, at least a minimum, though SM3 seems to have reduce that part.
The next 3 days after the date I realized that a girl even if she says she is a feminist which usually like to play tough/masculine will expect that the men do all the work of seduction, attraction, sex, acting, showing interest, take risk. And that she will take absolutely no risk, but here absolutely none. To the extent that the man has to completely leave her no chance of escape during the sex act. Which means that she prefer to have no choice so she can put all the consequence and responsibility on the man. What someone would call a rape. She is looking for a rape literally, without knowing it of course, its her subconscious. But basically after investigating her mind and her behavior I realized she wanted me to put her in that position because she showed no sign of interest when I gave her full sign of interest like kissing her. She wanted me to fu** her but without telling me anything even with body language or behavior, I realized that after we talk through text messages the next day.
It's crazy how contradictory women are in their mind. This is a woman who is really feminine, has a very feminine core personality but think she is a feminist (feminist that play masculine role).
Just after writing about that I realized she is not the only one who had rapist fantasies. 2 out 3 girls I met did the same thing. It's not really rape because she want it but it seems like a rape because she play fools and don't want to reveal her feeling, her attraction. And it was even more crazy with this last girl because she almost didn't reveal anything with body language and I know I'm very good at body language now.
So ultimately that means to satisfy some girl needs you have to play the rapist role. The more feminine she is the more likely she will want that you take that role. How contradictory is that? if I ask those girls about rape they will frown like crazy and give crazy hate speech about rapist when actually they want you to play that role. And most of the time you will play it without being aware that you are doing it
