04-23-2016, 10:00 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-23-2016, 10:12 AM by JackOfHearts.)
Day 23:
I don't notice it but I can become angry very easily if someone disrespect me. SM3 makes it hard to focus on something boring. Life can be the greatest joy or the greatest boredom depending on what I do, going out is fun, reading a book is boring. It's bees a very long time I didn't read a complete book, just after 30 mins I get bored, this is very different from who I am, I used to be very patient.
Strange the way I learn with subliminal. I was thinking about something during the week, I was looking for something and today I finally found what I was looking for. It was in an old hard drive that I forgot it was there. In there I found a book that I downloaded 3 years ago that I probably didn't read or didn't understand. There was something about the difference between how women see sex and how man see sex. Even about men being more idealistic than women in a relationship.
This book is written by a female who seems to really understand the male point of view without degrading him, it's even the opposite, she says that men are more loving than women are, they get more needy, loving, and usually it's the women that break the relationship.
Day 26:
It seems the last resistance is gone and now I'm fully enjoying this stage again.
Attractiveness seems to have increase again. I went to a club yesterday, there was a cougar woman who came next to me at the bar. She engaged the conversation at lot of times, she also touch my body in a very obvious manner, she touch me with with her back (ass), her hair, she bent over near me. She talked a lot about stupid things around, it seems she wasn't completely sober. I went away after 10 minutes.
Before that cougar came the girl that was with my friends and I met the last time I wen't to this club saw me and came talk to me. If you remember this girl was very attracted to me the first time I met her. This time she came and I didn't recognize her, she asked me if I knew who she was and I didn't know. We talk a bit and she was with a group of friends girl. But they were too timid for my taste, boring girl even if they are not ugly.
Then I went dancing and I saw a lot of girls checking me out more than the last time. They are not like men though, they don't chase their prey, some of them don't even try to seduce me but I know they are interested by the way they look at me. It was unbelievable at one point how much women were looking at me. It was around 1pm, and every time a girl was passing near me she did the same thing, came to the same angle and look at me with the same look, the same gesture. It was crazy.
The last hurdle to me is to find a way to dance with them in a good manner other solution is to talk to them. I talked to one of them outside and she liked it, there a good smile on her face, we lock eyes also, but I didn't continue the conversation, and her friends came 1 minute after that.
I use IMPI red after 2 hours and it seems to improve things even further. I added some NPA after 3 house but it didn't seem to do something useful to me. I was a bit more alpha. But around this time there is not enough girls and most of them are tired, and I get unoticed.
Today I noticed a lot of young women looking at me. I lost a chance to approach a very beautiful girl. But the checking out in town has increased too, I was talking with a friend in the street and very women passing by was looking at me.
SM3 is back at full power, it's intense. I still have a lot of shyness to remove, I hope the next stage will help with that.
edit: I also noticed that I'm very cold to women, there was one women a bit crazy that was dancing all over the place and she danced very near me. And she did it repeatedly, the other women around were watching how I would react it was so obvious and funny. This women was a bit older than me. She came to dance near me a lot of time. At one point she completely touch me with all her body and said sorry like she didn't do it on purpose. I look at her with a bored look, and I didn't say anything. She said sorry again but she just wanted to engage conversation. But I wasn't interested in her, I was just bored and even angry I guess because she kept excusing herself, I didn't want to talk to her. It's repulsing when a women behave in a crazy manner, she was attractive though but not enough.