03-14-2016, 09:46 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-14-2016, 09:50 AM by JackOfHearts.)
Day 16:
I forgot a few things as there is so much happening lately. The cougar woman at my ice cream shop offered me something free. Something she said she won't do as it's very dangerous for her. This time I was surprised and she said no one will notice. I'm more natural with her, before I was a bit awkward, but now she always look at me with a smile like we share a story together. 1 week ago she did something strange too. She ask her female colleague to help her when I came in. But when the colleague, came she ask her “what do you need me for” and there were no logical reason from her.
So my conclusion is that she either feel I was too much for her (cougar woman) and she ask the young “pretty” colleague to come. Or she wanted me to hook up with her colleague. I don't think it was a conscious reaction from her. More an overwhelming desire to please me.
This is a little story happening in the background but there are a lot of them happening recently, so much that I can't keep track of them.
I also think there were some kind of half working manifestation at the beginning of the stage.
2 women went crazy about me online pretty fast. The first one for no logical reason. She was the kind of crazy girl so I didn't pay attention. So after 3 minutes talking she left me her number and said to text her.
The other one wasn't as crazy and she is gorgeous. After 30 minutes she went a bit crazy and told me I was about to fall in love with her. And then she told me to text her on Facebook because she doesn't come on this website too much. I still don't know what happened because they didn't answer my text afterward. The second one didn't seem like a fake but could be.
I went to the beach today and it seems some women are smiling at me under their sunglasses. It's not a big smile but a slight curve on their mouth like they enjoy what they see. A cougar women was staring at me. The sunset was in the opposite direction but instead of looking there she looked at me.
All I think right now is sex, every word I read seems to have a sexual connotation or I see a sexual word instead of the real word. When I look at a girl I can't prevent myself from looking at her pu***y. I do love that though, I like to be horny all the time. I go out every time I can, I don't even want to look at my computer anymore unless it's for dating online or working on something.
Day 17:
I did some crazy work with online dating, I sent a least 40 messages to women, all different message about them. And it paid off as a mature women invite me to diner just after seeing my description on a dating site. I have to admit that my description is near perfect for a mature woman. My motivation to talk to women is very high. I may have found that being around women satisfy my lust, my hunger for sex, at least partially.
I met the 2 women that were nervous with me last time when I was talking to them. And today they were nervous again. The first mature one was scratching all over her body like when someone is nervous during an audition. The second one, a 18 years old girl very mature for her age couldn't talk properly with me, for the first 4 minutes she was struggling with every word she said. At some point I told her “ are you alright, you don't seems ok” and she told me she is sick, that's the excuse she came up with and she had to think hard to find it. I never saw someone sick that couldn't even walk properly or talk and had to think hard to know what's happening to them. Funny to say the least. I wanted to invite her for a drink but I didn't, she was too young and they were her female boss not far away. Maybe I should have.
I couldn't stay at home today even for a Monday, and I went outside everyday since Thursday. Hopefully I don't have any work currently.
This sexual energy is hard to control I have to admit. I understand why Shannon said with SM3 if you don't have sex during it you literally don't want it.
I have a date set up for tomorrow, it's strange how women are reacting to me online. It's either yes I want to meet you right now or they ignore me. Once they know who I am really they start to melt. That's why I see this reaction from her, she didn't even try to search further and she ask me for dinner, she doesn't even know my name and I know she is not an easy catch usually, at least not with everyone.
But all girls are easy when you take the right approach.
I forgot a few things as there is so much happening lately. The cougar woman at my ice cream shop offered me something free. Something she said she won't do as it's very dangerous for her. This time I was surprised and she said no one will notice. I'm more natural with her, before I was a bit awkward, but now she always look at me with a smile like we share a story together. 1 week ago she did something strange too. She ask her female colleague to help her when I came in. But when the colleague, came she ask her “what do you need me for” and there were no logical reason from her.
So my conclusion is that she either feel I was too much for her (cougar woman) and she ask the young “pretty” colleague to come. Or she wanted me to hook up with her colleague. I don't think it was a conscious reaction from her. More an overwhelming desire to please me.
This is a little story happening in the background but there are a lot of them happening recently, so much that I can't keep track of them.
I also think there were some kind of half working manifestation at the beginning of the stage.
2 women went crazy about me online pretty fast. The first one for no logical reason. She was the kind of crazy girl so I didn't pay attention. So after 3 minutes talking she left me her number and said to text her.
The other one wasn't as crazy and she is gorgeous. After 30 minutes she went a bit crazy and told me I was about to fall in love with her. And then she told me to text her on Facebook because she doesn't come on this website too much. I still don't know what happened because they didn't answer my text afterward. The second one didn't seem like a fake but could be.
I went to the beach today and it seems some women are smiling at me under their sunglasses. It's not a big smile but a slight curve on their mouth like they enjoy what they see. A cougar women was staring at me. The sunset was in the opposite direction but instead of looking there she looked at me.
All I think right now is sex, every word I read seems to have a sexual connotation or I see a sexual word instead of the real word. When I look at a girl I can't prevent myself from looking at her pu***y. I do love that though, I like to be horny all the time. I go out every time I can, I don't even want to look at my computer anymore unless it's for dating online or working on something.
Day 17:
I did some crazy work with online dating, I sent a least 40 messages to women, all different message about them. And it paid off as a mature women invite me to diner just after seeing my description on a dating site. I have to admit that my description is near perfect for a mature woman. My motivation to talk to women is very high. I may have found that being around women satisfy my lust, my hunger for sex, at least partially.
I met the 2 women that were nervous with me last time when I was talking to them. And today they were nervous again. The first mature one was scratching all over her body like when someone is nervous during an audition. The second one, a 18 years old girl very mature for her age couldn't talk properly with me, for the first 4 minutes she was struggling with every word she said. At some point I told her “ are you alright, you don't seems ok” and she told me she is sick, that's the excuse she came up with and she had to think hard to find it. I never saw someone sick that couldn't even walk properly or talk and had to think hard to know what's happening to them. Funny to say the least. I wanted to invite her for a drink but I didn't, she was too young and they were her female boss not far away. Maybe I should have.
I couldn't stay at home today even for a Monday, and I went outside everyday since Thursday. Hopefully I don't have any work currently.
This sexual energy is hard to control I have to admit. I understand why Shannon said with SM3 if you don't have sex during it you literally don't want it.
I have a date set up for tomorrow, it's strange how women are reacting to me online. It's either yes I want to meet you right now or they ignore me. Once they know who I am really they start to melt. That's why I see this reaction from her, she didn't even try to search further and she ask me for dinner, she doesn't even know my name and I know she is not an easy catch usually, at least not with everyone.
But all girls are easy when you take the right approach.
