03-09-2016, 06:53 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-09-2016, 07:17 AM by JackOfHearts.)
(03-08-2016, 01:04 PM)Ultralight Beam Wrote: Nice, what don't you like reading here? Ur journal is just a part of u doesn't have to relate to everyone else's
It's simply annoying. No need to develop further. I'm not saying all is annoying though otherwise I wouldn't be there. And your journal is among the best.
It's my attitude toward the forum that changed, so yes it does relate to me.
But to give an example even past SM3 this behavior was beginning to emerge, it got more apparent since SM3. For example at some point I said something like you can't count Catman experience with SM3 because he never kissed a girl. This was censored but to me I meant no disrespect to him. It's only a fact. A lot of guys never kissed a girl until they are older than 23 so I don't see that as exceptional or as an insult to him, I was among the older guys when I kissed my first girl so it wasn't meant as an insult. I don't see that as a big thing anyway.
There are a lot of example like that where I didn't see there was a limit to what is acceptable to say.
If I would say all of them I would probably get ban
So that's example of my new aggressive attitude. I had to make an effort to reply here for another example. When I drive my car I take more risk, I get more angry if someone doesn't drive properly. Limitless, I wouldn't call it jerkiness though but more limitless, a limitless that need to get more natural as I'm not used to it yet.
Another example I was in school today. I made a lot of dirty sexual comment. I told them what I wanted to say without any shame. This behavior can be seen as bad or as a jerk. Maybe this is a process I have to go through.
On the plus side I really enjoy that attitude. It's fun and cool, I feel free to say anything I want. People get upset sometimes, I get censored even there
Please don't see that as provocation to the forum rules, it's only for sake of completeness. Tell me if I'm not allowed to say it and I will remove it. I hope I'm still sane, I do feel sane 
Otherwise I would have to blame Shannon sub ( this is ironical, I take full responsibility, your sub are awesome).@AlphaReal, it's more an attitude change I think, though it seems my voice changed, I'm not sure, I can't be specific here.
