Right now I'm experiencing a "rage" unlike anything I've ever experienced. I mentioned this in Shannon's journal, but what's happening is often times when I feel fear or sense myself doing something or avoiding something out of fear my reaction follows a predictable pattern: sense fear --> rage gets generated at the fear...a defiant rage along the lines of "you won't bully me" --> perform an action that makes me face the fear --> move on from the fear.
This appears to be the Magnus Engine and the FRM's solution to solving my fears. It's basically decided "K-Train MUST get to the design goal of DMSI...but...he's got these fears in front of him. It seems that when he's angry or riled up he tends to confront his fears better so let's remind him of all the success he's LOST from his fear, get him riled up, and then he'll just go into attack mode on all his fears until there aren't any left. Hat trick!"
Well played DMSI...well played.
EDIT: Work place productivity, celebrity effect, and overall sense of well being have improved. I'm supposed to go on break for the next 3 days but I'd like to test to see if continued listening breaks the wall. Eh, we're a long way off from a new FRM so I might as well follow protocol and provide solid data. Thanks to everyone who supports this journal.
Now I'm going to go spread the love and like some posts.
This appears to be the Magnus Engine and the FRM's solution to solving my fears. It's basically decided "K-Train MUST get to the design goal of DMSI...but...he's got these fears in front of him. It seems that when he's angry or riled up he tends to confront his fears better so let's remind him of all the success he's LOST from his fear, get him riled up, and then he'll just go into attack mode on all his fears until there aren't any left. Hat trick!"
Well played DMSI...well played.
EDIT: Work place productivity, celebrity effect, and overall sense of well being have improved. I'm supposed to go on break for the next 3 days but I'd like to test to see if continued listening breaks the wall. Eh, we're a long way off from a new FRM so I might as well follow protocol and provide solid data. Thanks to everyone who supports this journal.
Now I'm going to go spread the love and like some posts.
