Jennie's Journal with Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid

[jennielee]

I am home now sunburned and sore in places i didnt know existed. I said my final words that i would have preferred to tell him to his face. I hope he heeds my warning because i dont want to watch him suffer and go through the pain i see on the horizon. I have done all i can, so now i have my closure. I wish it was for better and not for worse, but it is closure nonetheless. Even the mighty lion has his downfall. You ever notice that even the strongest lions eventually are cast out and overthrown from their throne. We as humans at least have friends to fall back on (or should anyway). I will be there to help him if he ever can swallow his pride enough to ask. True friends are there in good times, bad times, when you are a nobody or a somebody, when you can lend a hand or need a hand. A person who is only in your life for what you can offer (sex money etc.) Will fade when you can no longer offer it. When you look to them for help they are nowhere to be found. Sometimes we misjudge people and put our true friends out of our life. Sometimes when you hit the bottom you need to go back and say im sorry and ask for forgiveness. I was guilty of it myself when i pushed family away, and when i fell i had to be humble and ask for help. as the old quote says pride goes before the fall. Dont ever ve too proud to ask for help. Even the leaders need help sometimes. Anyway im off to make dinner and soak for a while. Man i am so sore, but i am realky impressed that i did it considering just a few months ago i couldnt even walk a few blocks. My record was 14 miles before today, and that was when i was way younger and didnt have a kid in tow lol! I am even more surprised that i did it on the heels of a 5 mile walk. So today i set a new personal best of riding 24 miles plus towing a kid (she is about 40 lbs plus her trailer weight lol) i am proud of myself. I did the right thing today offering a helping hand even if it was refused and being physically capable of more than i thought i was. I also had the courage to face him when vefore i was afraid to speak my mind out of fear id lose him or something. I definately have less fear and more courage the sub is definately changing my life.