Jennie's Journal with Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid

[jennielee]

So anyway the latest news is that my mom went to ask for help on my behalf which i was contemplating doing myself, and somehow things have gotten so messed up that even if i ever did want to date him again i couldn't because of the rift it would cause between me and my family. I am no longer putting men over my family. I did it for two bad marriages and now i just wont do it again. So as much as i may love him there is zero chance of anything more than friends ever again. If i was smart it would have stayed friends in the first place, but i was vulnerable and stupid, afraid etc. But now i am above all that. I would like to see us friends again, but i dont see how being anything more will ever be possible again. I am hoping he will step up and at least answer me. I have some loose ends that need tying with him. I am ready for the next chapter which will for at least the duration of this sub include no serious relationships, and preferably none at all.