Jennie's Journal with Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid

[jennielee]

Well today i decided that i needed to make myself feel better so after riding somewhere around 10 miles today on my bike i actually feel quite good. It may well have been more but thats just a rough estimate. I have a new idea for my business, and need to gather some information before i can totally plan it out. Im not sure how feasable it will be yet but i guess we shall see i discovered today that bike riding is actually quite therepudic. Well maybe not discovered, but actually became more aware of its effects on me. I also got the chance today to spend some time out at my step uncles ranch all in all its been a decent day so far. My productivity for today has been focused on achieving a balanced state of mind and sense of peace. Yes i still have bills to worry about etc, but i am becoming confident that they wont be difficult to manage soon enough. I feel a definite shift in my energy. I am no longer in the realm of i can'ts but rather a renewed sense of i can. It seems that alot of my pain is melting away. I feel it leaving me with just a sense of love and acceptance. I find myself content with what i have. I also feel confident in goals priorities and wants. I am finally becoming who i should have been all along, i am finally aiming to push myself to the limits of what i am capable of and then a little more. I dont feel the urge to be lazy anymore. I finally feel like a grownup for the first time in my life. I thought i knew what it meant to be an adult, but i was still looking from a childs perspective. Now i am here the world seems different. I am actually thankful and enjoying this experience. It was a bit of a rough start, but now i can see the effort as being worthwhile. Finally i get it