Monday 23 November - Day 7 of cycle 3 (day 1 of break)
So far nothing
no change in anything and no dreams or anything.
My neediness, clinginess is still there as im still in contact with the girl.
The fears I have that are obvious to me on a daily basis, such as fear of losing the girl, fear of being in the friendzone by her or fear of my future after my degree such as fear of studying, fear of not knowing enough for when I work are all there.
There is so much fear and lack of confidence in me that im aware of due to these factors/stimuli coming into my life (Ie the girl, a year from graduating etc) has all now shown me so far that the sub isnt working on me
Im also trying so hard to overcome the fears I have to procrastinating on my studies and the fear of the amount I have to learn and all I have to do keeps causing me to avoid and end up paralysed or focused on porn or other fun things.
So far nothing
no change in anything and no dreams or anything.My neediness, clinginess is still there as im still in contact with the girl.
The fears I have that are obvious to me on a daily basis, such as fear of losing the girl, fear of being in the friendzone by her or fear of my future after my degree such as fear of studying, fear of not knowing enough for when I work are all there.
There is so much fear and lack of confidence in me that im aware of due to these factors/stimuli coming into my life (Ie the girl, a year from graduating etc) has all now shown me so far that the sub isnt working on me
Im also trying so hard to overcome the fears I have to procrastinating on my studies and the fear of the amount I have to learn and all I have to do keeps causing me to avoid and end up paralysed or focused on porn or other fun things.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
