Stage 2 Day 29
I decided to not fap and watch porn anymore.
it's hard cause two different girls constantly calls me daddy and female friends sends me hot pictures
now i see how Optimus Engine works for AM.it depends of your definition about being an alpha.it's interesting to watch the process.
starting to remove "worried" state that i'm most of the time in.when i'm out with friends i can't enjoy as much as i want.it can be result of not meeting some basic needs like sex.i don't have problem about getting sexual with the girls but some factors out of my control ( for now ) blocks my path.i still dream of my exes.even one night two of them but it's getting less and less every day.
financial situation is getting more stable although it's not yet but i'm moving in the right direction.
i read more and use the dead times.like waiting times or between texting with girls.my interaction with women is limited.mostly because of external factors.
damn!yesterday i met a girl that now i realize was like Eva Angelina
we talked i said something about my childhood and she said something like " AAAAA how cute" i prefer women that are positive , strong , kind.
watched a music video that i used to love,i still love it BUT my mind set is shifted about how men have to be.i'm seeing women more as humans. their needs , fears , wants etc
if i continue this state , as experienced before with (ASC and personal methods) i'm gonna enter super man mood.when i'm in super man mood women loves me, i love myself i can deliver my point and i enjoy being myself.with ASC it happened around day 100.
i'm starting to accept who i am.my height,my face.sometime i want to shout doesn't matter where i am.i think about a memory and i want to shout as hard as i can to release something inside.in general i feel good.semester gonna finish about 10 days and i want to change my body during summer and surprise people.
I decided to not fap and watch porn anymore.
it's hard cause two different girls constantly calls me daddy and female friends sends me hot pictures
now i see how Optimus Engine works for AM.it depends of your definition about being an alpha.it's interesting to watch the process.
starting to remove "worried" state that i'm most of the time in.when i'm out with friends i can't enjoy as much as i want.it can be result of not meeting some basic needs like sex.i don't have problem about getting sexual with the girls but some factors out of my control ( for now ) blocks my path.i still dream of my exes.even one night two of them but it's getting less and less every day.
financial situation is getting more stable although it's not yet but i'm moving in the right direction.
i read more and use the dead times.like waiting times or between texting with girls.my interaction with women is limited.mostly because of external factors.
damn!yesterday i met a girl that now i realize was like Eva Angelina
we talked i said something about my childhood and she said something like " AAAAA how cute" i prefer women that are positive , strong , kind.watched a music video that i used to love,i still love it BUT my mind set is shifted about how men have to be.i'm seeing women more as humans. their needs , fears , wants etc
if i continue this state , as experienced before with (ASC and personal methods) i'm gonna enter super man mood.when i'm in super man mood women loves me, i love myself i can deliver my point and i enjoy being myself.with ASC it happened around day 100.
i'm starting to accept who i am.my height,my face.sometime i want to shout doesn't matter where i am.i think about a memory and i want to shout as hard as i can to release something inside.in general i feel good.semester gonna finish about 10 days and i want to change my body during summer and surprise people.
where attention goes energy flows and result show
