Hercules Journal

[Daredevil]

So it's been two days since I first started this Journal and I talked to my friends and they told me that I was different when I just started this program and people thought that I changed but now I regressed to my old self. That is disappointing but I still will go on with the Sub. I am noticing all my limiting beliefs and how insecure I get when I see someone who I perceive that is better than me and how I change my walking style which kinda gets awkward. I hope the subliminals can change that because that is really limiting on my subconscious and life. Also I am on a no porn fast for 180 days also and I just only blow a load to pictures not videos anymore and sometimes masturbate without anything but my mind. It's kinda hard to do that effectively because my penis takes long to get hard but it's worth it. I want to stop masturbation forever because of the amount of energy it wastes when blowing a load. I haven't been doing my goals for the last 3 days so I really need to get some momentum in that direction because those are what in tandem with the subliminal change my life completely by 2017. I am still a little bit self concious but that has gone down dramatically and I am more confident than before. My friends say that the reason that I don't get women is because I think I am the prize but in their mind women is alway the prize which is true but a true alpha (which I am far from) perceives himself as the prize and that women would be glad to be with him. I am taking notes on how women react to me an even though it's getting better slowly they still give me the cold shoulder even though I went from 0 females liking me to many wanting to associate with me. So I'm going to start back on my goals and hope that I will see more results in a few days.