Hercules: A Man journeys through the 12 Labors to become a God

[Daredevil]

So I've been thinking and overthinking, contemplating and over contemplating on what subs to do. I'm on day 15 on EPHRA and I won't be doing this for much Longer. Im going to switch to LTU for 13- l7 Months and then do OF 5G for 12months. Then I Will Do AM7 in 6G for 4 years(hopefully it's in 6G by then). If I don't quit mid way and complete the Subs to the amount of time I say I will then I will be an example on what happens when you run single stage subs like LTU and OG for an extended period of time. I've not been a fan of Sub hopping because of impatience but I found myself doing that by quitting on ASC cuz of resistance and Now gonna quit on EPHRA in a month because I wanna start a long term goal. So Starting today will officially mark the beginning of my Journey to Become a God. Let's just hope that my future wife doesn't kill me!! Also I am going to make it a habit to record my progress with the Subs every day.

Some things in my background is that I'm not a popular guy and most of my life I had to act like a fool to get attention and was the guy who people never really invited out. And when I got invited out my mom wouldn't let me go because of my "safety". I wasn't alowed to go much anywhere as a child and despite having amazing athletic potential as a pre-teen, my parents didn't let me go to the park to practice and boy I was strong willed but having nowhere to play and no competition and was getting less athletetic I went into a depression and stopped chasing my hoop dreams. I've been bullied half my life and a person asked "why do you let yourself get treated like that, do you like it"? obviously yes I liked it because I didn't stop it but on the top layer no I didn't like it because I want to be my own man. In my house I was constantly belittled by my own father and he would get mad over the simplest things, lived by the "do as I say, not as I do" law, not take responsibility around the house and didn't take serious action when it came to financial descisions. Also he was a whiner. I'm basically a hermit with friends who aren't really my friends and I've NEVER, EVER kissed a girl, nor have gotten a girlfriend, nor have had sex. During my HS years I was into PUA crap and that sh**plainly didn't work. I just became an ass to put it bluntly. I at the moment don't know what I want to be in life but I know for sure I want to do something great and Big and not repeat the mistakes of parenthood that my family on both sides has been doing for many generations. Cuz what I'm seeing from their stories is that the children raise their own in the same distorted fashion that there parents raised them, only with more money.

Add ons

on top of subliminals I will have a diet based on my "mixed" metabolic type and get a parasitic cleanse once every 2 months. Also by April I will have monotomic gold everyday to increase the synaptic speed in my brain on top of other things.

Also I will be doing a high intensity gym routine 3x a week that will test my endurance and mental fortitude.

Meditation will be done 30 minutes a day along with yoga 30 minutes in the morning. I will be updating my book list that I read every week and I plan to read 2-3 books a week for now.

Lastly, bioenergetics and isometric training will be part of my day also with me setting a goal to walk 7,000 steps a day.

Well that's my journal and life plan. Let's see if I can stick to my word.

[Zane]

Best of Luck..Just keep posting. Your story is similar to mine.

[Daredevil]

I was reading through old posts and I saw this.

Wow. With a mother like that, it's no wonder you're having a hard time.

There are two poles to all things, including motherhood. On the extreme of mothering-ness you have women who are too emotional, too clingy, too invested outside themselves (in their children) for their own self satisfaction, self worth, etc. These are the mothers who rush to the aid of their children when their children would be better served by that not happening. It's very bad for their daughters, but devastating for their sons. They destroy their sons through being too mothering, worrying too much, infecting their sons with guilt and shame and fear, all in an effort to keep them where they will feed the insecurities the mother has.

These families typically have a very weak, very emotional (and usually controlled by the mother), and/or non-present father figure. They tend to produce overweight children, and deeply neurotic ones as well in some cases. Daughters learn that to get what they want from a man, they should use guilt/shame/fear tactics, and turn into their mothers. Sons learn that they cannot express their natural masculinity without being "wrong" or "bad", and they suffer impeded personal growth, frustration, and sometimes depression. When the time comes for the kids to leave the nest, mom doesn't want that, so she uses every weapon in her arsenal to prevent it or minimize it, never understanding that she's destroying their lives in the process.

The solution? The children must understand the issues their mother has, and then recognize what she has done to affect them through those issues. They must them work on themselves to overcome those issues through personal strength and growth. They must overcome and throw away guilt, shame and fear. They must outgrow it, reject it, shed the effects, and then force their mother to deal with her fears through their own freedom. It can be done... I have seen it, and I have done it. My grandmother was like that, and my mother was trying hard to become her after she died.

It's no wonder, knowing that, that you don't cooperate with the weight loss program.

This is absolutely true. My mother had no father and is very clingy toward me to the point where she would try to make me angry just for me to talk to her. I suffered deeply from this and my mom used GSF all the time to control me.

Seeing all the ways that it affected me I am wondering if the mother archetype in me will be healed by using EPHRA and LTU.

[Daredevil]

Day 19 Review EPHRA

I haven't been reporting much here because there hasn't been much to report but let me take a shot at it any way.

So Yesterday I basically stayed home and listened to EPHRA for 18 hours of the day. The results were peculiar in that my mother asked me if I need to see a therapist and I was like WTF? She was complaining that if I keep on keeping to myself and not socializing that I'll go crazy. Hearing that BS got me angry and triggered a negative loop in my head of things that I would say or do differently after the fact but this time it was different. There wasn't as much emotional intensity attached to the loop as there usually would be so I'm guessing that the Sub is working. I have real family problems and kinda still resent my mother and father for holding me back in my childhood. Also the lower back pain that I had from when I was 10 started to creep up back on me again and this is root chakra pain because all the doctors I went to say there is nothing wrong so I concur that its emotional pain stuck in my root chakra with issue dealing with safety and fear. Ever since I did this sub, the pain has been subsiding but sometimes I still feel pain on some days when I'm emotionally triggered. Also in my solar plexus there used to be a burn in the summer and I recognized that's pent up emotions and that's gone too more or less.

[CatMan]

I was reading through old posts and I saw this.

Wow. With a mother like that, it's no wonder you're having a hard time.

There are two poles to all things, including motherhood. On the extreme of mothering-ness you have women who are too emotional, too clingy, too invested outside themselves (in their children) for their own self satisfaction, self worth, etc. These are the mothers who rush to the aid of their children when their children would be better served by that not happening. It's very bad for their daughters, but devastating for their sons. They destroy their sons through being too mothering, worrying too much, infecting their sons with guilt and shame and fear, all in an effort to keep them where they will feed the insecurities the mother has.

These families typically have a very weak, very emotional (and usually controlled by the mother), and/or non-present father figure. They tend to produce overweight children, and deeply neurotic ones as well in some cases. Daughters learn that to get what they want from a man, they should use guilt/shame/fear tactics, and turn into their mothers. Sons learn that they cannot express their natural masculinity without being "wrong" or "bad", and they suffer impeded personal growth, frustration, and sometimes depression. When the time comes for the kids to leave the nest, mom doesn't want that, so she uses every weapon in her arsenal to prevent it or minimize it, never understanding that she's destroying their lives in the process.

The solution? The children must understand the issues their mother has, and then recognize what she has done to affect them through those issues. They must them work on themselves to overcome those issues through personal strength and growth. They must overcome and throw away guilt, shame and fear. They must outgrow it, reject it, shed the effects, and then force their mother to deal with her fears through their own freedom. It can be done... I have seen it, and I have done it. My grandmother was like that, and my mother was trying hard to become her after she died.

It's no wonder, knowing that, that you don't cooperate with the weight loss program.

This is absolutely true. My mother had no father and is very clingy toward me to the point where she would try to make me angry just for me to talk to her. I suffered deeply from this and my mom used GSF all the time to control me.

Seeing all the ways that it affected me I am wondering if the mother archetype in me will be healed by using EPHRA and LTU.

Wow...

It's like he was talking to ME lmao...

Thankfully, I've done well to repair a lot of the garbage and recognise the behaviours she does etc. and since I've started subs things with her are a lot better. I can thank AM6 for that. It's too bad I've only stumbled into subs etc. when I was 33. So much time gone, but I can only look forward I guess.

If I did it, so can you, Hercules. Great old-school-Shannon-post-find lol, and great progress so far. EHPRA is an amazing sub, DON'T go off it prematurely like pretty much everyone does out of impatience. Stick it out the full 192 days and you should have a nice foundation to build on with subs from then on!

Good to see.

[Daredevil]

Yeah ephra is a long term thing. I would recommend sticking it out because it will get rid of problems you didn't even know you had. If you quit now you might as well have been doing nothing these last 15 days, in my opinion.

I'm gonna do LTU as soon as I get the money and that's soon cuz I got 45 dollars saved up, all I need is 45 more and I will have that put aside after 2 weeks. That'll be 32 days by then which is the minimum amount of time to play a sub. And plus, I am gonna play LTU for 450 days so that should do wonders for me. And After I'm gonna do OF for 395 days and that should put the nail in the coffin for 99% of my emotional hang ups and neuroticism. I feel fear all through my body the past few days and my body is feeling stressed out for no reason at all. Kinda feels like when I was a child I was always high strung because of the loud sand confrontational nature of my parents to each other arguing over silly things. The high levels of adrenaline and cortisol has left its mark on me and that's why I'm a hothead sometimes and prone to doing dangerous activities just to get an adrenaline rush(not drugs).

[Daredevil]

Also say I do the EPHRA sub for 450 days and save $90. At the end I will clear out all the junk from all my past lives and stuff and be free of all emotional hang ups. But there is nothing else that is there other than self validation being programmed into me. Also, I predict that it won't get me women unless women can sense that a non neurotic man has more value than a neurotic one and 99% of us are neurotic.

But I still wonder what's the D in the EPHRA subliminals. What is it manifesting?

[Daredevil]

Also Due to Catmans latests posts, I am going to start no fap and watch no porn forever. As a replacement behavior I will run outside for about 15 minutes each time I get the urges. Or I will do a 3 minute plank. I have realized that my orgasms have been unfulfilling and when I daydream about sex I don't get hard. Also I have to watch more and more raunchy porn to get off. Porn is thouroghly entertaining but I want a better life and more energy so I'm going to quit.

[CatMan]

Also Due to Catmans latests posts, I am going to start no fap and watch no porn forever. As a replacement behavior I will run outside for about 15 minutes each time I get the urges. Or I will do a 3 minute plank. I have realized that my orgasms have been unfulfilling and when I daydream about sex I don't get hard. Also I have to watch more and more raunchy porn to get off. Porn is thouroghly entertaining but I want a better life and more energy so I'm going to quit.

YES! YES!

I'm so happy and humbled.

I'm very proud of you, friend.

Remember, Shannon has a sub designed to defeat pornography addiction, and one to defeat masturbation addiction. So, preferably you can do no porn and no fap DURING EHPRA of course. But if push comes to shove, just realise you aren't alone. Those two subs are right there, they have your back.

And so do I.

Great decision!

[Benjamin]

It's like he was talking to ME lmao...

Haha it's funny because I realized that post was to me, I still struggle with some of that but it's alot better.

[Daredevil]

Day 20


Well I just realized that I had a fast heart rate. it's in the 80-120 bpm range. I thought it was because of the sub but the main curl pit is my 5000 IU of Vitamin D a day. I was told I had low vitamin D and I looked the the maximum safe dosage online and saw 5,000 IU. So I've been doing this for like a month so I'm gonna stop taking all my vitamins for a month and only eat food. I think the stress from EPHRA is making it worse. I'm gonna go on a colon cleanse this Saturday and Sunday and do a liver cleanse on the 11th in order to clear my body for my new diet which I haven't started. Also I was just in bed and I dreamt strange dreams. So I proceed to wake up and take the headphones out my ear and listen to the sub through my speakers. I go back to sleep and I got Pschicly attacked by some black thing that wouldn't let me move and I had to fight to be able to move. Maybe that's an Unconcious projection of me because it kinda has my kind of outline. Either way I was scared and felt irrational fear for a few minutes because of this and I hate when I worry to much. I dunno if I should do OF first or LTU first. I have unresolved fears that I need to deal with but I don't want to do of right now because I don't want to be alone anymore and looking at LTU it seems like it gives you social popularity also. I guess we'll have to see when I get the money.

[Daredevil]

So I realized that I need to have a direction in life before I try to get in the drivers seat and take control of it. So I created a Goals list that is


1. Mega Influence [size=[/size]
Be able to socialize and speak to anyone with ease, tact and skill. Become a master persuader and negotiator and be able to talk my way into anybody's heart at anytime I want. The reason for this is that I have many great ideas that I want to share with the world but I don't know how to put what's in my head into words and how to communicate my ideas effectively.

Processo AM7 5 times and Charisma Subliminal to increase my social likability and staus. Learn how to communicate first by putting all ideas on paper when it first comes into my head. For the next 10 years I will study social dynamics, body launguage, communications tactics, ands wide variety of topics for me to speak on.

2. Extreme will/Mental fortitude

I want to be able to will things in and out of my life with mere thought and be able to achieve superhuman feats. Why? Because I am naturally strong willed but it got destroyed by my parents and in trying to regain my will. This will also boost my productivity and success in life.

Process: Insane gym routine 3x a week pushing myself to the limit. Stop masturbating, Run marathons and take part in extreme athletic challenges. I will Use Seek the challenge and Ultra motivation for a year and do my runs of LTU and OF.

3. Intelligence/wisdom development/Spiritual Knowledge[size=x-large]

I plan to be able to merge occult and the sciences together and attain a high IQ and be a jack of all trades. I will use my imagination to create wonderful creation ms that benifit life on earth as a whole. EX: Machines that lift up 20% of Earths ocean water and keep it suspended in the sky in order to create a stable tropical climate everywhere on earth and Satalites that beam down Orgone energy to keep planet earth healthy.

Process- Do neuroplasticity training everyday, study astrology and esoteric doctrine from the ground up. Buy and use Platnium, Gold, and iridium to boost brain cognitive function and speed. Go in trance using Shannon's entrainment audio to bring down info from the Spirit realm.

[Daredevil]

Day 25 Review

Also I masturbated today. Was the worst descision I made and now I'm in bed with low energy and a few hours before I have to wake up. So that was 6 days of no porn and no fap. Then restart the counter. With the EPHRA sub I realized less negative thoughts popped up while I busted one than before and it's probably because I'm releasing the GSF association with sex and healing psychological traumas. With my interactions with people I've goten slightly better but not by all that much honestly. While some people respect me, some people still don't hear me and ignore me or disrespect me when I talk.

[Daredevil]

Day 27 Review

So I talked to my dad today and he accused me of something and I kindly told him you are accusing me of stuff that has no clear evidence. He reacted angrily to my statement and said I was being disrespectful and threatened me with a couple of more hurtful statements and I stayed calm on the outside even though my heart was speeding up. I still have to let loose of the psychological grip that my parents have on me. Now this is better than before EPHRA when when he pushed my buttons I went into a self defeating loop in my head.