09-19-2017, 08:27 AM
Day 37
A few interesting observations today. I went for a talk about creating online marketplaces, like uber, airbnb and such. It was interesting and I was intrigued. After the talk walking to the bus stop home, I was deep in thought with ideas. I noticed pretty girls as usual but I became aware how my attraction to them distracted me from my thoughts. I became aware that I was wasting brain power on them. It's crazy, I realized I was fussing over what a girl I don't know thinks of me, how I look to her from this angle, how I can appear more cool etc etc. It's all so subconscious and habitual. I was astounded by how stupid this is. I just stopped those thoughts and focused on what I wanted to think about, which is ideas for marketplaces.
But ultimately after thinking more about it, it's not for me. If I build a successful marketplace, I would probably need to build a local company with local staff, which would cost me my freedom. That's not what I want for now. I remember Duke saying how important his freedom is to him, and I feel the same way. Also, the idea of creating a marketplace sound boring to me. I would rather be the creative and create and sell the sexy product, rather than creating the platform for other people to do so.
That little bit of thinking was important to me because it further solidified the identity I am currently aiming for, which is this free, rather rich, rather eccentric, creative business person with niche hobbies (e.g. contemporary dance, tennis). I thought about what kind of girl is suitable for me. Two archetypes came to mind. Somebody like me; high achieving, non committal, YOLO type. Again I am reminded of Duke and his friend K. Or maybe a slight airhead, somebody who's easily contented and super non ambitious. My current FWB is the second type. Maybe that's why we gel well together.
Going deeper with MLS.
A few interesting observations today. I went for a talk about creating online marketplaces, like uber, airbnb and such. It was interesting and I was intrigued. After the talk walking to the bus stop home, I was deep in thought with ideas. I noticed pretty girls as usual but I became aware how my attraction to them distracted me from my thoughts. I became aware that I was wasting brain power on them. It's crazy, I realized I was fussing over what a girl I don't know thinks of me, how I look to her from this angle, how I can appear more cool etc etc. It's all so subconscious and habitual. I was astounded by how stupid this is. I just stopped those thoughts and focused on what I wanted to think about, which is ideas for marketplaces.
But ultimately after thinking more about it, it's not for me. If I build a successful marketplace, I would probably need to build a local company with local staff, which would cost me my freedom. That's not what I want for now. I remember Duke saying how important his freedom is to him, and I feel the same way. Also, the idea of creating a marketplace sound boring to me. I would rather be the creative and create and sell the sexy product, rather than creating the platform for other people to do so.
That little bit of thinking was important to me because it further solidified the identity I am currently aiming for, which is this free, rather rich, rather eccentric, creative business person with niche hobbies (e.g. contemporary dance, tennis). I thought about what kind of girl is suitable for me. Two archetypes came to mind. Somebody like me; high achieving, non committal, YOLO type. Again I am reminded of Duke and his friend K. Or maybe a slight airhead, somebody who's easily contented and super non ambitious. My current FWB is the second type. Maybe that's why we gel well together.
Going deeper with MLS.
