06-15-2018, 03:02 AM
So never before made a journal anywhere, i dont actually type anything out online like this so no idea what im doing or how to type this out really so bear with me and most of this might be confusing jumping from point to point cause i have to write stuff down as soon as it comes otherwise i completely forget about it
So been listening to DMSI since 2.4 now doing 3.2 B 4 loops hybrid trickling stream low volume with headphones
Now i have received looks from girls some very blatant one where she was with her boyfriend or husband and she turned her head completely around while walking forward and stares at me for a good 5 seconds, others where its just quick looks here and there, i have had a two girls brush right up against me at work but i work in a kitchen so that could be just tight space although one of the girls has bent over in front of me repeatedly with a low cut shirt and the other always has her butt pointed in my direction. I have also noticed alot more beautiful women around although i cant get out much as i have epilepsy although its mostly cured now which question for Shannon, could the spot i have on my right temporal lobe that caused the seizures could that affect dmsi? As the right temporal lobe controls nonverbal communication like facial expressions or understanding aspects of nonverbal communication like humor and sadness and also the personality like unable to consider the perspectives of other people, doesn't help ive also had around 4 concussions though could be more ive lost track
As to The Wall im forgetting what its supposed to block i know porn was in there but i am still masturbating to porn although i get angry with myself afterwards.
I also have a job opportunity i can take that will pay me between 6-7 grand a month but ill be out in the middle of nowhere so not sure if DMSI is pushing me towards that to become more financially stable or a self sabotage cause there wont be any women there and if there is its the kind you don't want anywhere within 100 feet of you
I know theres alot more stuff but its 5 in the morning so im pretty tired and going to bed[/align]
So been listening to DMSI since 2.4 now doing 3.2 B 4 loops hybrid trickling stream low volume with headphones
Now i have received looks from girls some very blatant one where she was with her boyfriend or husband and she turned her head completely around while walking forward and stares at me for a good 5 seconds, others where its just quick looks here and there, i have had a two girls brush right up against me at work but i work in a kitchen so that could be just tight space although one of the girls has bent over in front of me repeatedly with a low cut shirt and the other always has her butt pointed in my direction. I have also noticed alot more beautiful women around although i cant get out much as i have epilepsy although its mostly cured now which question for Shannon, could the spot i have on my right temporal lobe that caused the seizures could that affect dmsi? As the right temporal lobe controls nonverbal communication like facial expressions or understanding aspects of nonverbal communication like humor and sadness and also the personality like unable to consider the perspectives of other people, doesn't help ive also had around 4 concussions though could be more ive lost track
As to The Wall im forgetting what its supposed to block i know porn was in there but i am still masturbating to porn although i get angry with myself afterwards.
I also have a job opportunity i can take that will pay me between 6-7 grand a month but ill be out in the middle of nowhere so not sure if DMSI is pushing me towards that to become more financially stable or a self sabotage cause there wont be any women there and if there is its the kind you don't want anywhere within 100 feet of you
I know theres alot more stuff but its 5 in the morning so im pretty tired and going to bed[/align]