08-16-2024, 05:46 AM
One thing I do notice in the past couple of days since starting:
Before starting AoL, I had a lot of insecure attachment issues regarding many of my relationships that I’ve started to form since moving to Tennessee.
One relationship in particular, which I won’t go in to too many details, but it’s a situation where I was basically “chasing” someone. Not necessarily in a romantic sense, but rather just trying to connect in a very basic sense. There had been a lot of obstacles to this happening and it has had me depressed and frustrated. In the last few days I’ve started to realize that this is a vain pursuit and while it’s not bad to want to be friends with someone in particular, it’s never good to invest a ton of energy into trying to pursue a friendship or connection with someone who either is not ready for it or is simply not as interested. In another sense it’s also good to allow people space and time, and if they never come around that’s okay too. I feel myself slowly starting to adopt this attitude and I feel it may signal better days ahead.
Could it be the sub? Maybe. In any case I will continue with it and make note of any other observations.
Before starting AoL, I had a lot of insecure attachment issues regarding many of my relationships that I’ve started to form since moving to Tennessee.
One relationship in particular, which I won’t go in to too many details, but it’s a situation where I was basically “chasing” someone. Not necessarily in a romantic sense, but rather just trying to connect in a very basic sense. There had been a lot of obstacles to this happening and it has had me depressed and frustrated. In the last few days I’ve started to realize that this is a vain pursuit and while it’s not bad to want to be friends with someone in particular, it’s never good to invest a ton of energy into trying to pursue a friendship or connection with someone who either is not ready for it or is simply not as interested. In another sense it’s also good to allow people space and time, and if they never come around that’s okay too. I feel myself slowly starting to adopt this attitude and I feel it may signal better days ahead.
Could it be the sub? Maybe. In any case I will continue with it and make note of any other observations.
“When you change yourself...you change the world”
-Silvera, Gojira
-Silvera, Gojira
