Fluffybunny DMSI 3.3 Journal

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I decided to create a journal, cause 3.3 feel interesting.. can really pin point it.
Also would like to contribute a bit to the experiment.

History ran 3.2a 1 loop every day since release till 3.3 was released. Still running one loop atm.

With 3.2a i think only the first 3 weeks was taxing on energy and tiring. after that i never really felt any energy difference. I mean after months of running it I think I got quite used to it. plus im pretty sure i was executing things already so, didnt feel like i was using much energy on removing inner fears or anything.

I have no self-esteem issues, confident, escalation, sexuality, hesitation or approach anxiety or any issues of the inner issues with women.

Past 6 months slept with 8 different girls. I have really high standard otherwise there would be a lot more lays but most girls just dont really peak my interests.
One lay at a festival, met her end of night pulled her to my car parked outside and slept with her in back seat.
One lay, 15 min pull from club to my place, lay her after another 15 at my place.
One lay strip club - funny thing, i saw a gorgeous stripper. a female friend of mine happen to be friends with them. i told her to hook me up. i got a dance with her first..
then she later went to her and told her stuff about me. got her social media went on a first date and i slept with her.
One lay - walking around uni campus, closed a girl number , 3 days later went on date and laid her.
one lay - started using an online app for the first time, she texted me 11pm, after 30 mins of texting met up with her at a lounge, didnt even drink. i lead her to my apartment to drink it was nearby lol, the moment we enter my play ..was a lay
one lay - online app, went on a date took me 7 hours to lay this girl lmao...longest ever.
last lay, is the first day i started dmsi3.3 so a week ago, been texting this girl since Sept. met her Jan. Well... i already knew i was gonna lay her before i saw her. First moment i saw her i can confirm it... then one hour later vola in my bed... this girl is hot...
(two days before this lay met up with a girl i really like... we made out but nothing happened, time wasn't on my favor lol.) what was ***** up was i texted her afterwards and i ***** it up... i never **** up randomly with stupid texts =_=, i made a stupid ass joke that was like over teasing lol... now i have to wait another few weeks and hopefully she ends up seeing me again. As long as she shows up everything will be easy lol.

Also for some reason... half of the girls stopped seeing me after first lay lol (not the sex issue, they always tell me im like the best they've, im really dominant during sex and have zero performance issue) , I atm have 3 on rotation but sometimes its a hassle to get them out because they for some reason just know i do not want long term relationship with them. Dont get me wrong they are quite dam hot its just they aren't the one, and i would only go into a long-term relationship when i know they are the one cause i want to lead to somewhere more. I need to do more deep pillow talk otherwise they might end up all running away

had one day rest and started DMSI 3.3

Day 1 - day 7.

First few days i felt like i got hit by a truck. That was the kind of energy I was operating on lol.
I sometimes would fall asleep during the day plus i was a bit annoyed at how I the ONLY girl that mattered to me i did not lay her. I am not used to not laying the girl and still liking her a lot. So this was taxing on my energy too.

I found myself dreaming of her a few times. I maybe good at closing girls but i dont really get into relationships unless I really really like the girl, and its rare for me for that to happen therefore I have the fear that I would lose a girl like this and will take a long time to find one again...

I would wake up many times throughout the night sometimes i would dream like 4 different dreams.. sometimes i wakeup fall right back to sleep into the same dam dream lol. lasted for pretty much all 5 days. so i decided to take 2 days break and was a bit better. I dont see the dreams as vivid and remb less of it.

Also side note i felt like this was clearing fear for me relatiing to my business life. recent i have started a business and on the process of launching... and have lots of fear towards it, its a new adventure for it, and i think i was dreaming of something about it. cant quite remember.

Difference i notice
During first two day i notice chicks checking me out when im driving at stop signs.

been quite busy for the past week so was not exposed to girls. today i went on to uni campus. few things i notice...
I dont really take notice if girls are checking me out or not when they are walking by me.. cause those are pointless unless i act on them.

I got to the classroom, saw my female friend that i always sit with. First thing i notice is, i am looking at girls with a higher "interest" level. Aka my energy and BL and facial expression is communicating to the girl "i am interested in you". I did not really like this feeling and i can feel myself looking away almost. I have a very deep gaze its like a soul gaze when i look at people. also have a tendency to not communicate interest this way.

it almost felt like it was like a needy vibe but its not... no idea how to explain it. Its almost like i am gonna devour you kinda look lol. i notice her blush too when i first saw her. Which makes sense cause my BL was communicating interest and I never showed interest in her entire semester.

It's a very outward vibe. Before running DMSI i can already look miles away at a chick and she would notice. and look back... now its like the second i turn my head over she looks back =_=... im like wtf... and i can feel the way im looking at them its a very sexualized energy. who knows maybe it will lessen in a few weeks and back to normal level. (I have many girls comment on my gaze and they find intimidating .. but i dont look intimidating at all, some very often i have to make sure im not looking too deep. )

Goal of running: hm its fun and who doesnt wanna be more sexy to women, also the sexier i get the more option i have, and the easier i will find the one girl i wanna date long term.

I like the more pronounced sexualization. If you’re able be this detailed concerning external effect.