12-21-2018, 06:12 PM
Noticing I am being more open with certain people, as in revealing aspects of my past that I wouldn't normally.
I don't like speaking about "stuff" as I don't like to be seen as a past version of myself or share my goals as proof is in the pudding. But for some reason I have and blabbered on about everything revealing my past and everything I have been through and what I intent to do. I don't even know why. Maybe this is what normal people do? Lol.
For some reason I don't seem to care as much as I would once upon a time, kinda now like blah whatever it has been done. Before I would feel exposed and vulnerable and wish I never said anything and then close off even more and then never let it happen again.
I can get a gist of that feeling, but there is a more of indifference to it.
Seriously, I am thinking why did I speak all open and reveal aspects of myself that I have kept hidden from this particular person.
It's not 100% but I think if this continues I might actually turn into a real human being, that is not closed of, feels exposed and vulnerable when speaking about myself and my past.
This has highlighted, how much I have closed myself off socially from feeling exposed and vulnerable.
I hope I am not just imagining this, as it is early days but time will tell for sure!
I don't like speaking about "stuff" as I don't like to be seen as a past version of myself or share my goals as proof is in the pudding. But for some reason I have and blabbered on about everything revealing my past and everything I have been through and what I intent to do. I don't even know why. Maybe this is what normal people do? Lol.
For some reason I don't seem to care as much as I would once upon a time, kinda now like blah whatever it has been done. Before I would feel exposed and vulnerable and wish I never said anything and then close off even more and then never let it happen again.
I can get a gist of that feeling, but there is a more of indifference to it.
Seriously, I am thinking why did I speak all open and reveal aspects of myself that I have kept hidden from this particular person.
It's not 100% but I think if this continues I might actually turn into a real human being, that is not closed of, feels exposed and vulnerable when speaking about myself and my past.
This has highlighted, how much I have closed myself off socially from feeling exposed and vulnerable.
I hope I am not just imagining this, as it is early days but time will tell for sure!
