March 23, 2023
2nd listening day
I'm listening to hybrid trickling stream since I realized fear is steering me right and left. I'm almost finished with the 3rd loop, and I'll see how it affects me more tomorrow.
For now, I'm getting sleepy. I've also felt like some fear chains are loosening.
Also since over a month ago, I've been listening while sleeping. My listening times usually start in the PM and go into the very early morning hours. For example, yesterday's loops started on March 21st in the PM. So when I wrote (the 22nd), I said it was listening day 1. My point in saying this scheduling is it's messing with my head.
I just realized my original issue and why I've been using masked. My refurbished PC I bought over a year ago has some defective part (a motor of some sort) which starts buzzing after a few hours, so I've been listening to masked on my phone. I always enjoyed ultrasonic, but listening from my phone speaker (a Galaxy) causes some earaches even at reasonable volumes, so I've been using masked.
I bought a "renewed" computer off of Amazon an hour ago since I'd like to listen to ultra or hybrid on my PC speakers, as I've never had earaches using them. I'm not having any trouble here while listening to hybrid, and hybrid has always worked well with me.
My main reason for using hybrid now: fears seem to be growing more, and I'm seeking a little more power. So, I skipped to hybrid. I remember some very positive times and experiences using hybrid (UD and LTU5). LTU5 on hybrid essentially rescued me in 2019. On my first day of vacation, I arrived in KY where my ex lived, and I learned within the first hour there that my mom had died back home. I shared this in my journal, and Shannon seriously advised me to do more loops. I did, and I found myself having a lot of joy around my ex and my daughter. I did a LOT of laughing with them while up there. Yeah, running a lot of hybrid loops while under serious stress literally rescued me.
2nd listening day
I'm listening to hybrid trickling stream since I realized fear is steering me right and left. I'm almost finished with the 3rd loop, and I'll see how it affects me more tomorrow.
For now, I'm getting sleepy. I've also felt like some fear chains are loosening.
Also since over a month ago, I've been listening while sleeping. My listening times usually start in the PM and go into the very early morning hours. For example, yesterday's loops started on March 21st in the PM. So when I wrote (the 22nd), I said it was listening day 1. My point in saying this scheduling is it's messing with my head.
I just realized my original issue and why I've been using masked. My refurbished PC I bought over a year ago has some defective part (a motor of some sort) which starts buzzing after a few hours, so I've been listening to masked on my phone. I always enjoyed ultrasonic, but listening from my phone speaker (a Galaxy) causes some earaches even at reasonable volumes, so I've been using masked.
I bought a "renewed" computer off of Amazon an hour ago since I'd like to listen to ultra or hybrid on my PC speakers, as I've never had earaches using them. I'm not having any trouble here while listening to hybrid, and hybrid has always worked well with me.
My main reason for using hybrid now: fears seem to be growing more, and I'm seeking a little more power. So, I skipped to hybrid. I remember some very positive times and experiences using hybrid (UD and LTU5). LTU5 on hybrid essentially rescued me in 2019. On my first day of vacation, I arrived in KY where my ex lived, and I learned within the first hour there that my mom had died back home. I shared this in my journal, and Shannon seriously advised me to do more loops. I did, and I found myself having a lot of joy around my ex and my daughter. I did a LOT of laughing with them while up there. Yeah, running a lot of hybrid loops while under serious stress literally rescued me.
I want to be FREE!
