08-23-2018, 12:27 AM
I thought it was quiet on E2 yesterday. Ran it at home and at work again yesterday. Nothing big emerged.
But something is coming out. I had a background fear surface before going to bed. I realize I've usually tried to stuff or distract from it, so..... I didn't. I didn't even write since I feared lying. Just went to bed.
It feels like a mix of danger and sadness. The sadness is what surfaced physically when writing that last sentence. It kind of feels "dangerous" moving into new ground, and that feeling is linked to feeling very young. I remember a house I grew up in. I lived there from around age 9-13. Lots of memories there.
I'll share later, after something has passed. These are powerful memories.
But something is coming out. I had a background fear surface before going to bed. I realize I've usually tried to stuff or distract from it, so..... I didn't. I didn't even write since I feared lying. Just went to bed.
It feels like a mix of danger and sadness. The sadness is what surfaced physically when writing that last sentence. It kind of feels "dangerous" moving into new ground, and that feeling is linked to feeling very young. I remember a house I grew up in. I lived there from around age 9-13. Lots of memories there.
I'll share later, after something has passed. These are powerful memories.
I want to be FREE!
