08-21-2018, 02:31 PM
Ok, I got pissed right before leaving work. Been considering my solutions and possible choices, and..... doubt rose, maybe from fear, so I'm pretty sure it'd be the right choice.
First, I asked my ex-Marine alpha boss before leaving if I'd be doing a certain task tomorrow, he said yes, and another worker came up behind me waiting his turn. What pissed me off was the boss blew me off so quickly to begin talking with the other guy enthusiastically. I felt dismissed, and I'm mad. I shared two days ago how I felt unimportant at work, and that is what I'm talking about. I've not had a spine, people know it, and I've been regularly dismissed.
I'd been reading some journals today, and I opened Antaeus' AM6 journal. I'm unsure exactly what stage he's on, but his anger from being dismissed, ignored, and talked over is boiling in him. I resonated with it, and this was hours before work ended.
I'd not eyed AM6 in a while, and I've been perpetually focusing on healing and clearing. I'm seeking a spine, not a "high". Some guts and willingness to say "HEY! You're being an a**hole!" I was disrespected by an actual a**hole I worked with today, and I'd not even thought of subs or AM6. My boss dismissing me so quick is bulls***, and I'm not ok with it. F*** no!
I'm considering AM6 once my 90 days on E2 is up. I'm frickin tired of being shit on and allowing it. It's not right. I'd thought of USLM, but it was optional. I've wanted confidence, and AM is loaded with it. And doubting every move will get me nowhere, as I'd looked at USLM for business reasons. AM6 would be a much better choice.
A good note: I'd not been running E2 on my phone all day, but 30 minutes before I left, I turned it on. It may have allowed this for me.
First, I asked my ex-Marine alpha boss before leaving if I'd be doing a certain task tomorrow, he said yes, and another worker came up behind me waiting his turn. What pissed me off was the boss blew me off so quickly to begin talking with the other guy enthusiastically. I felt dismissed, and I'm mad. I shared two days ago how I felt unimportant at work, and that is what I'm talking about. I've not had a spine, people know it, and I've been regularly dismissed.
I'd been reading some journals today, and I opened Antaeus' AM6 journal. I'm unsure exactly what stage he's on, but his anger from being dismissed, ignored, and talked over is boiling in him. I resonated with it, and this was hours before work ended.
I'd not eyed AM6 in a while, and I've been perpetually focusing on healing and clearing. I'm seeking a spine, not a "high". Some guts and willingness to say "HEY! You're being an a**hole!" I was disrespected by an actual a**hole I worked with today, and I'd not even thought of subs or AM6. My boss dismissing me so quick is bulls***, and I'm not ok with it. F*** no!
I'm considering AM6 once my 90 days on E2 is up. I'm frickin tired of being shit on and allowing it. It's not right. I'd thought of USLM, but it was optional. I've wanted confidence, and AM is loaded with it. And doubting every move will get me nowhere, as I'd looked at USLM for business reasons. AM6 would be a much better choice.
A good note: I'd not been running E2 on my phone all day, but 30 minutes before I left, I turned it on. It may have allowed this for me.
I want to be FREE!
