Findingme's E2 journal

[findingme]

Jumping subs would not help me Jake. E2 was my 2nd sub purchased, and I've bought half a dozen or more since. I got into feeling like me sub jumping was all I knew, and it felt bad. When I looked at what other people were doing, I saw them committing themselves, posting start and end dates, and reporting.

DMSI is a very powerful sub. But so is E2. So is UD. So is MLS...ARA.....SE, should I say more?

I've looked for greener grass by jumping. I remained, essentially, unchanged. I wasted a lot of my time. That's not been a happy experience.

I'm sticking with my plan. E2 is still digging. When I did E2 a year ago, I hid from the forum. E2 challenged my foundation so much I pulled away from people here who would say "keep going". I wanted control. I sought........ouch.......to remain the same.

Going forward, I'm finding I have to face the changes taking place, consider them, and ask myself when I am eyeing the escape route.........."is this really true?" I've been helped looking at other people's experience using different subs, as we all think everyone thinks what we're thinking. But that's not true. I find encouraging results too.

I'm staying put. Change isn't so hard when I get a bigger picture of my situation and see I'm not alone. It's all good.