Some updates. . . . . .
Currently on idk day something. Week 3 (day 17 of 192?)
** Wanted to point this out**
I have listened to primarily ultrasonics for the past 2 weeks. I honestly have not felt many internal changes- despite my posts. Recently I have started doing masked- exclusively. I have felt much more effects from this.
I have been reading posts here, primarily from people who have been (more than 2+ here) past AM6. Despite this I feel that the actions they make can sometimes be beta. -if that makes sense
Also on that point, I used to think that I was not good with women, despite sleeping with around 2 of them so far. However I have been giving myself more credit. I feel now that I am much better than I thought I was. For me my inner game is good, or getting much better. I seem to have a disconnect with the actions that I take. I am still trying to find my happy-medium. When to engage actions and persistence.
Another thing, back 5 months ago (way before this), their was an attractive woman who I knew at the liquor store here in town. Shes cute. Has glasses, and a funny personality. I remember then asking her out (if I remember correctly) and nothing ever materialized from this. Recently however, this particular liquor store is on the way home, and I have stopped in for a beer- sometimes making a chit or chat.
Later asked if she wanted to enjoy some pizza at my fav joint her in town, and she eagerly obliged (and I mean eagerly). After I started these subs, I felt more picky than I did before. Noticeably my vibe.
That old vibe being desperation. New vibe: Being picky/Challenge.
We have not meet up yet as we both have 50hr work-weeks, but seems very eager in text- and I also have not texted her that much. Since we haven't met formally- we have had maybe 5-10 texts over the course of two weeks.
Shes cute- but I don't care what happens either way.
I feel much more in control.
All I need now is motivation to see my goals through and to study!!!
Currently on idk day something. Week 3 (day 17 of 192?)
** Wanted to point this out**
I have listened to primarily ultrasonics for the past 2 weeks. I honestly have not felt many internal changes- despite my posts. Recently I have started doing masked- exclusively. I have felt much more effects from this.
I have been reading posts here, primarily from people who have been (more than 2+ here) past AM6. Despite this I feel that the actions they make can sometimes be beta. -if that makes sense
Also on that point, I used to think that I was not good with women, despite sleeping with around 2 of them so far. However I have been giving myself more credit. I feel now that I am much better than I thought I was. For me my inner game is good, or getting much better. I seem to have a disconnect with the actions that I take. I am still trying to find my happy-medium. When to engage actions and persistence.
Another thing, back 5 months ago (way before this), their was an attractive woman who I knew at the liquor store here in town. Shes cute. Has glasses, and a funny personality. I remember then asking her out (if I remember correctly) and nothing ever materialized from this. Recently however, this particular liquor store is on the way home, and I have stopped in for a beer- sometimes making a chit or chat.
Later asked if she wanted to enjoy some pizza at my fav joint her in town, and she eagerly obliged (and I mean eagerly). After I started these subs, I felt more picky than I did before. Noticeably my vibe.
That old vibe being desperation. New vibe: Being picky/Challenge.
We have not meet up yet as we both have 50hr work-weeks, but seems very eager in text- and I also have not texted her that much. Since we haven't met formally- we have had maybe 5-10 texts over the course of two weeks.
Shes cute- but I don't care what happens either way.
I feel much more in control.
All I need now is motivation to see my goals through and to study!!!
