DAY 6 of 192...
NO dreams to report only observations.
So where do I start, I had many mini-epiphanies today starting off with New Years.
Think about it what do most 20 somethings all the way to 50 year olds do on New Years thats socially accepted?
Drink and get drunk.
I was invited to 3 different parties last night.
-One that my employer stet up
-One that was an after-party after the one above
-One that my sister invited me to (that ended up only having 10 people there- so I was told)
I was considering going. Earlier that day I felt good about myself. That I would go and have no expectation of anything. I didn't care about getting a woman or not.
I had to set up a register for the other party that my employer hosted for Homeowners, Hotel Guests and rich people only. I was not invited to this party. As mentioned above, I work at a Ski-Resort. So these other parties cater to the rich. (not that I care)
As everything was being set up, I encountered a co-worker in another department who after chatting with him- revealed to me that the woman that I had an interest for (mentioned in previous post- about the gondola) was going to his house after work.
Didn't make me mad, in-fact I hoped for the best for him- and actually I hope he pounded that pu*** that night.
***Note here that my previous self would have got hugely bent-out-of-shape and would have become depressed and retreated inside himself***
I realized a couple things from that interaction.
--Never to get bent out of shape over a girl. Any girl. (More on this later but: I have been reading Blackdragon 2.0 book. I honestly wouldn't give a damn if I was married and she was banging someone on the side. Ill just do the same).
--New Years eve parties are all about getting f-ked up so you hopefully have a chance with some girl. (I talked to another co-worker, and based on his vibe- that's what I got from him) Some people are better at hiding their true intentions than others but I think ALL Beta-Males think this way when going out. ***That they can hopefully "Score" a hot girl.
Immediately when I realized this, I decided to say f-k it to any parties. I had no interest after that. In-fact I wanted to meet up with a friend and just chill-out. ***Which is what I ended up doing. Going to the market, buying some ribs, going home, cooking them- and making myself a Moscow Mule (my favorite right now) and going to my friends."
Their we had a drink, shot off a little firework and smoked a little. (Also I had mentioned either in this thread or my EPRAH threat that I think outside of the box when I smoke).
Two things happened when I smoked:
-I was no-longer paranoid of anything. In-fact I was much more relaxed and open than I think I have ever been before.
-I felt extremely dominant body language. I felt taking up space, not in a overt- over-the-top way at all. My back was strait and I kinda gave a preening stance while seated.
I just remembered...
Before we started to watch "Always Sunny in Philadelphia" a Viagra commercial came on with a very attractive older woman. I completely phased any of the commercial out and was just imagining her going down on me- giving me this best BJ ever.
(friend made a joke about "why you watching this commercial" I just responded in a way that made me feel really good about saying "because I am imagining her naked")
I could feel that sexual energy more pronounced than before. I can totally give off a sexual energy when I want to- if the woman gives it off too. (that's how I slept with my ex in 2 to 4 hours- we both knew "it was on.")
Anyway for my last Epiphany that night, we watched "Always Sunny in Philadelphia"- the episode named The D.E.N.N.I.S. system. (Its about one of the characters giving out pick-up advice)
Wow, I see social-programming now so differently now. As I was watching I couldn't stop laughing. These poor guys were being given the worst pick-up advice imaginable. And just to think that Beta-Males think this is how you pick up women or Attract them. It was like all the bad advice men give was DISTILLED AND SHOWN ALL IN ONE EPISODE.
Why do I think this? Well, I laughed about 3-4x more during the episode than my friend. That told me that he was not getting the Epiphanies about society and how men are taught about women.
The next two episodes after that were basically the same. These 3 guys on the show are just all AFC's and beta-males. It was actually painful to watch. Failing shit-tests and just being a pussy is somehow considered cool in society.
F-K THAT
Forgot to add, only on page 10 of Blackdragon's 2.0 book. I think it is seriously good stuff. I read that before I came up with the idea of not going to the New Years Eve party. And it just "clicked" inside of me that minute.
Sometimes I wonder if I am getting the max-benefit from Ultrasonics. I figured out how to play them without hearing any static. Sometimes though I feel the urge to check with Frequensee to see if its working.
Got 10 hours of Ultrasonics last night too. 2am-12pm.
After only 6 days do I see results like this... all I can think is holy-shit. I cant wait for day 100 or day 192!!!!
Resistance is almost non-existent to me. I read about how alot of people who do AM6 go through ups and downs. I feel much different. My mind is open and ready for change.
Leaps and bounds!
-Leo
NO dreams to report only observations.
So where do I start, I had many mini-epiphanies today starting off with New Years.
Think about it what do most 20 somethings all the way to 50 year olds do on New Years thats socially accepted?
Drink and get drunk.
I was invited to 3 different parties last night.
-One that my employer stet up
-One that was an after-party after the one above
-One that my sister invited me to (that ended up only having 10 people there- so I was told)
I was considering going. Earlier that day I felt good about myself. That I would go and have no expectation of anything. I didn't care about getting a woman or not.
I had to set up a register for the other party that my employer hosted for Homeowners, Hotel Guests and rich people only. I was not invited to this party. As mentioned above, I work at a Ski-Resort. So these other parties cater to the rich. (not that I care)
As everything was being set up, I encountered a co-worker in another department who after chatting with him- revealed to me that the woman that I had an interest for (mentioned in previous post- about the gondola) was going to his house after work.
Didn't make me mad, in-fact I hoped for the best for him- and actually I hope he pounded that pu*** that night.
***Note here that my previous self would have got hugely bent-out-of-shape and would have become depressed and retreated inside himself***
I realized a couple things from that interaction.
--Never to get bent out of shape over a girl. Any girl. (More on this later but: I have been reading Blackdragon 2.0 book. I honestly wouldn't give a damn if I was married and she was banging someone on the side. Ill just do the same).
--New Years eve parties are all about getting f-ked up so you hopefully have a chance with some girl. (I talked to another co-worker, and based on his vibe- that's what I got from him) Some people are better at hiding their true intentions than others but I think ALL Beta-Males think this way when going out. ***That they can hopefully "Score" a hot girl.
Immediately when I realized this, I decided to say f-k it to any parties. I had no interest after that. In-fact I wanted to meet up with a friend and just chill-out. ***Which is what I ended up doing. Going to the market, buying some ribs, going home, cooking them- and making myself a Moscow Mule (my favorite right now) and going to my friends."
Their we had a drink, shot off a little firework and smoked a little. (Also I had mentioned either in this thread or my EPRAH threat that I think outside of the box when I smoke).
Two things happened when I smoked:
-I was no-longer paranoid of anything. In-fact I was much more relaxed and open than I think I have ever been before.
-I felt extremely dominant body language. I felt taking up space, not in a overt- over-the-top way at all. My back was strait and I kinda gave a preening stance while seated.
I just remembered...
Before we started to watch "Always Sunny in Philadelphia" a Viagra commercial came on with a very attractive older woman. I completely phased any of the commercial out and was just imagining her going down on me- giving me this best BJ ever.
(friend made a joke about "why you watching this commercial" I just responded in a way that made me feel really good about saying "because I am imagining her naked")
I could feel that sexual energy more pronounced than before. I can totally give off a sexual energy when I want to- if the woman gives it off too. (that's how I slept with my ex in 2 to 4 hours- we both knew "it was on.")
Anyway for my last Epiphany that night, we watched "Always Sunny in Philadelphia"- the episode named The D.E.N.N.I.S. system. (Its about one of the characters giving out pick-up advice)
Wow, I see social-programming now so differently now. As I was watching I couldn't stop laughing. These poor guys were being given the worst pick-up advice imaginable. And just to think that Beta-Males think this is how you pick up women or Attract them. It was like all the bad advice men give was DISTILLED AND SHOWN ALL IN ONE EPISODE.
Why do I think this? Well, I laughed about 3-4x more during the episode than my friend. That told me that he was not getting the Epiphanies about society and how men are taught about women.
The next two episodes after that were basically the same. These 3 guys on the show are just all AFC's and beta-males. It was actually painful to watch. Failing shit-tests and just being a pussy is somehow considered cool in society.
F-K THAT
Forgot to add, only on page 10 of Blackdragon's 2.0 book. I think it is seriously good stuff. I read that before I came up with the idea of not going to the New Years Eve party. And it just "clicked" inside of me that minute.
Sometimes I wonder if I am getting the max-benefit from Ultrasonics. I figured out how to play them without hearing any static. Sometimes though I feel the urge to check with Frequensee to see if its working.
Got 10 hours of Ultrasonics last night too. 2am-12pm.
After only 6 days do I see results like this... all I can think is holy-shit. I cant wait for day 100 or day 192!!!!
Resistance is almost non-existent to me. I read about how alot of people who do AM6 go through ups and downs. I feel much different. My mind is open and ready for change.
Leaps and bounds!
-Leo
