Finding the light at the end of the tunnel- my am6 journey.

[Benjamin]

Hahahaha I read that article! I wonder how many people tried it.

[Leo1990]

So I am here with a buz.

I am typing this knowing I will read this later- primarily for me and those who read this, I hope you benefit from this too.

Went to a bar then bounced to a Kariokie place. I had two drinks and realized that I was afraid of other peoples perceptions of who I was, and how well I would do at Kariokie. Their was a cute chick managing it. Even though I had two drinks before driving there, I was sober enough to think she was hot.

WOW, so after typing that I feel really materialistic. I definetly wanted to bang her, for a guy thats how I feel- and I realize I still have a long path to go. Society has fucked me up, because part of me wanted to see her as a person, but for the life of me, I could not. I only thought: If I play my cards right, I would have her in my hotel room right fucking now.

But alas as I post this- and the tone that I post this; this did not come true.

Some things I also realized. So basically:

if you read this whoever: you need to sit down with yourself, I mean this.

This is what I want you to do. So I think, in my drunken state that we ALL have ONE fear that prevents us from getting what we want. MY example is women, and Kariokie happens to fit into this(the same false belief/fear runs both). As it turns out wanting to go on-stage in front of what? Five people brought up this fear.

Their was plenty of women that I could of talked to at the mall (reference above post). I honestly count (roughly) FIVE. I got one, sort of. I don't need anyone's apology, or "you did a good job" because honestly in my mind- I FAILED.

It is this, being hard on ones-self that inspires greatness- I think.

HONESTLY if you want PUSSY in your bed whenever- and I dont mean being married (unless your in an open-relationship and your wife helps pick-up women... another story) you have ONE OPTION:

AND THAT IS TO GO FOR THE

G O L D!!!

Their is no other option. In my mind Silver/Bronze does not get you to that Happy Place where you want to be.

Deep inside me I call for the day I can approach (within reason, and within logistics) ANYONE, that I find ATTRACTIVE. I dont care if shes with another dude. For all you know thats her brother (and thats the best mindset to beehive when doing so).

When I am putting all myself on the line; in a honest and genuine way. Only then will you know if she is interested (I AM TALKING ABOUT DAYGAME ONLY). Nightgame requires some... finesse. Which I honestly have no patience for. (if the chick wants you to drink before she talks to you- walk away).


I dont know what else to say. Except find your fear (because I believe it is ONLY ONE) because I think finding one and meditation may help understand it and find its weakness.

I forgot to mention, my fear is: WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK.

If I can twist this to some degree to which it gives me power... then hell yeah!

Thats what I mean by FIND YOUR FEAR, and then FIND ITS WEAKNESS.

Because the truth is... most people worry about HOW THEY ARE PERCEIVED to focus on you!!!

Once you know this truth- it gives you power.


-Leo out

[SargeMaximus]

I'm not sure exactly what you're talking about but my remedy is simple: approach girls. at least 3 a day (like me) and you'll see your game and priorities change.

Good luck.

EDIT: Oh yeah, and stay off the booze.

[Leo1990]

Haha, thanks.

I like getting things out regardless of what state I am in.

For example, when I smoked trees/weed (when I did), I often saw life as more of a game. In the sense that I needed to get my priorities in order, and I felt like social conditioning was a tactic that the elite used to keep us all suppressed.

For me it identified my first goal I should take.


The fear I spoke about was the fear of other peoples perceptions. Thats what I noticed when I did my first approach and when I was at the kariokie bar. It was the same fear. I say fear because thats what it is. Not anxiety. I dont know if everyone's fear is the same as I. Thats the other reason I was using generalities in my last post.

I dont reccomend trying to get rid of the fear. Instead find its weakness. Like for example. Public Speaking. My grandfather always used to say to "Imagine all the people you are speaking to are naked and taking a shit."

Things like that. I need to find its weakness for me.

[SargeMaximus]

I hear ya. For me, fear is more rational. Will talking to this girl yield good results or not? If the benefit is overshadowed by the perceived downside, I just won't attempt it, even if I'm calm and collected.

[Leo1990]

Bought 3 books today:

-Rational Male vol 2 Rollo Tomassi
-Become an Alpha Male! William Wyatt
-No More Mr. Nice Guy Robert Glover

Going to finish Alpha 2.0 before they arrive. Just thinking, I don't know alot about women social dynamics. I got alot of game stuff, but that's all theory. So really its like I swallowed a small red-pill instead of the full size.

Anyway, should be here in a week.

[Leo1990]

Do you think that SOCIETY would label ALPHA MALES with IDGAF mentality "man-child?

I read this post here:
http://therationalmale.com/2011/10/20/alpha/

I couldn't help think that most Alphas would be labeled children by society. Which is funny.

What do you think?

If being an Alpha Male is the product of a Mindset, does AM6 have incorporation's of this in the instructions?

"The same way you dont ever question if you can turn left or right and grab something. It´s an action, not a belief. You try it and do it enough and it becomes reality. When you have it as a reality, it can't be taken away. You are “deluded” and fixated in a moment. It carries on with you. If you lose it, inertia sets it back to the center. The mind is always in that state actually, grabbing something. Even if you let lose it grabs something else (be it, emptiness or silence is still something). The trick is to try and get into the Alpha side of you so it becomes your first nature – your default self."

I think it is easier to create mindsets when you are a more outgoing (less introspective person). Would you agree?

Conscious Mindset Frame: I am UN-reactive to others.
Alpha is a cause not an effect.

[Leo1990]

So some of the links above came from therationalmale.com (recommended by a member here).

In the post here: http://therationalmale.com/2011/12/20/th...e-reality/

Rolo talks about the Feminine Imperative, how all betas believe a lie that supports this.

I think I may have a breakthrough for my re-programming. You see, occasionally (and I think I mentioned this too) I get depressed. What I think about is something along the lines of:

-Being alone
-Wanting to get together with a woman (perhaps married)
-Other beta thoughts like this

These are the thoughts that SNAP me out of a good state- lets say after I have approached a woman (which is awesome), but nothing came of it (other than conquering that fear).

So I read this (Quoted from http://therationalmale.com/2011/12/20/th...e-reality/)

******
"Everything a man experiences, every social conditioning he receives from the earliest age, every accepted social norm and every expectation of him to qualify as the definition of a mature adult Man in contemporary society is designed to serve the female imperative. Moralist wallow in it, absolutists and defeated white knights existentially depend upon it, and even the better part of relativists still (often unwittingly) feed and serve the feminine purpose. In fact, so all encompassing is this reality that we define our masculinity in the terms of how well we can accommodate that feminne influence.

Our media celebrates it, and brooks no dissent. There is very little dissent, since to peel back the veneer is to be at odds with a reality defined by the female purpose. You feel lonely because you can’t understand it’s influence, and the conditioning you’ve been subjected to defines the objective solution to curing that feeling. You base the decisions of your future, your education, your career, your religious beliefs, even where you’ll choose to live, to better accomodate the feminine influence either in the present or in preparation of accommodating it in the future.

You get married, out of fear for not being found acceptable of it, or from social shame for not yet having accepted your role in service to the imperative. Your children are offered in tribute to it, while in turn you unknowingly perpetuate it in them. You pay tribute in alimony, in divorce proceedings, in the expected sacrifices your career demands to maintain its influence in your own life and in society at large. You exist to facilitate a feminine reality.

We can excuse it with moralisms, we can attach notions of honor and stability to it, we can even convince ourselves that the feminine imperative is OUR own imperative, but regardless, men still serve it."

******

I also remember many previous men (who were married and now divorced) saying they will never do that again. Including my father at some point.
[Wedding ring: The smallest handcuffs ever made]

As weird as it sounds, my thoughts have been well- what I considered stupid but none-the-less acceptable.

I now can see them as very harmful and any-time the crop up I will immediately re-frame and destroy them.

As I said in the last post, I bought 3 books. One happens to be the author of the above quotes. I plan on being that person who is re-programmed for the better. Conscious Competence.


-Leo

[Leo1990]

after approaching a couple times this past few days (what limited amount in my town of 15,000 people), my anxiety has gone down dramatically- hardly any. I just need to make the first move.

I have been Yad-Stopping these women too. The first two were very beautiful and the third today was not as pretty but she smiled at me and I decided to compliment her on her smile.

I have also had no urge what-so-ever after this to look at porn... nada... 4th day so far too!

[enoch]

Do you think that SOCIETY would label ALPHA MALES with IDGAF mentality "man-child?

Yes and it only serves to keep males from having this mentality by shaming it as man-child behaviour. Sadly, the more you discover/learn of the Feminine Imperative the more frequent you will see it around you.

Your wedding ring-handcuffs reference is hilarious. Men around me has this notion of getting married asap. As if their happiness depends on it and believes that it is the next stage in their life. I did so too from grade school until a few years ago when my friend younger than I has married and it slowly transitioned to a sexless marriage in a period of less than 5 years. His mind have accepted this reality.

[Benjamin]

Yeah I hate the thought of marriage.

I was talking about a mental girl I met to a friend the other day and the first thing he says is "oh you need to find a nice girl and settle down and have kids".

What the fuck!?

Really.. I can't think of anything worse. I always wondered if it was my own issues of abandonment and such but as i've healed more of that i'm realizing it may not be that afterall, maybe i've just realized how much bs marriage actually is.

That girl i've been seeing tries to give me shit about not wanting to get married, but she straight out told me when she was engaged to another guy she had someone on the side.

Oh great evidence to convince me to do so!

[Leo1990]

Helloooo...

Thinking about what to say. I was reading my previous postings/journal entries...


Feeling motivated to meet people/women after watching half of the blueprint. Not finished with it, been doing other things.


I did want to make this posting though, I am on the last stage- but unsure of hours. I don't feel like much, and as I was reading my previous postings when I look back on it- I don't feel like I have changed.

I dont feel any more alpha, dominant or assertive than I was before. Well maybe a bit, I attribute it to approaching women, and realizing the abundance of opportunity that lies before me.

Just not sure what to do at this moment. I feel like 6 stages is too much. Kinda like if you are doing affirmations, you want to limit it to 15. Otherwise its just too much. Kinda thinking the same.

I use ultras exclusively. I will set my speakers up and I cant hear anything, but sometimes I will wake up and hear crackling...??

I have told alot of members and even previously that I wanted to run this 2-4 more times... I am just not sure as I haven't felt much.

I have been waiting patently for the new EPRAH, although I wonder when it will be done. As I wanted to do that after I think. Or ASC with AOS? I saw a post that someone did both? Might of been the 4g- not sure.

hmm... approx 10hrs a day while asleep.

[Leo1990]

Looking back my posts are like a roller-coaster. Up down up down.

Very interesting.


Oh yeah, and whats with the Shop website having a Musicians category but their are no Music subs????