09-30-2020, 11:21 AM
Rollercoaster. Up and downs. Down, and then more downs.
That's how I would describe these last two weeks. I almost threw in the towel on the sub. If not for the very tangible progress I have made such as quitting my job and moving to a new city, I think I would have concluded the sub is not working. Classic resistance, eh.
Fortunately, I stayed on it, and I am feeling much better today. The anxiety I felt the last couple of weeks was arguably an all time high.
I started a new mentorship project (with me being the mentee). I am working from home, and had to prepare a business presentation as one of the tasks in the mentorship. Just the thought of me doing the presentation sent my brain into overdrive. Consciously, I knew I would not be doing the presentation. That did not stop my fear of public speaking almost crippling me.
Public speaking is one of my worst fears. I do a few each year, and always dreaded it each time the presentation day approached. However, those moments were not as bad as compared to when I was working on this simulated project.
I tried using caffeine and L theanine as I read the combination can be used as a nootropic to enhance concentration, motivation, and calmness.
I started with 200mg caffeine tablet and 200mg L theanine. It increased my motivation for the first couple of hours. After that, I just wanted to sleep. Then about 6 hours later, even talking to my housemates made me anxious.
I later read I needed a 2:1 ratio of caffeine to theanine. So the next day, I did 400mg theanine to 200mg caffeine. Same outcome. The following day, I reduced the dosage to 200mg theanine to 100mg caffeine. Still the same outcome.
Why was I getting the opposite outcome of what others were getting? I checked out a few Youtube videos and realised I could be sensitive to caffeine. If that is the case then it is an eye-opener.
I am not a big coffee drinker. I've hardly experienced the caffeine boost others talk about. However, I do drink tea and average 3 cups a day for the last three years. Could my anxiety be linked to the caffeine in the tea? Only time will tell.
I plan on eliminating all caffeine products for a month and then slowly re-introduce it to see how I feel.
I did the same with wheat last May. When I reintroduced wheat in my diet, I could tell how I was slowly getting anxious and short-tempered. From my experience, gluten sensitivity is not a myth. I avoid gluten when I can now. I don't think I will quit gluten products completely though. I still have some pasta or bread about once a week. I may reduce the frequency in the future. What's life without pasta, bread and croissants though?
Shannon is doing us a great service
. However, I think it's important to take personal responsibility of every aspect of our health. Subs are a great tool to get us there.
That's how I would describe these last two weeks. I almost threw in the towel on the sub. If not for the very tangible progress I have made such as quitting my job and moving to a new city, I think I would have concluded the sub is not working. Classic resistance, eh.
Fortunately, I stayed on it, and I am feeling much better today. The anxiety I felt the last couple of weeks was arguably an all time high.
I started a new mentorship project (with me being the mentee). I am working from home, and had to prepare a business presentation as one of the tasks in the mentorship. Just the thought of me doing the presentation sent my brain into overdrive. Consciously, I knew I would not be doing the presentation. That did not stop my fear of public speaking almost crippling me.
Public speaking is one of my worst fears. I do a few each year, and always dreaded it each time the presentation day approached. However, those moments were not as bad as compared to when I was working on this simulated project.
I tried using caffeine and L theanine as I read the combination can be used as a nootropic to enhance concentration, motivation, and calmness.
I started with 200mg caffeine tablet and 200mg L theanine. It increased my motivation for the first couple of hours. After that, I just wanted to sleep. Then about 6 hours later, even talking to my housemates made me anxious.
I later read I needed a 2:1 ratio of caffeine to theanine. So the next day, I did 400mg theanine to 200mg caffeine. Same outcome. The following day, I reduced the dosage to 200mg theanine to 100mg caffeine. Still the same outcome.
Why was I getting the opposite outcome of what others were getting? I checked out a few Youtube videos and realised I could be sensitive to caffeine. If that is the case then it is an eye-opener.
I am not a big coffee drinker. I've hardly experienced the caffeine boost others talk about. However, I do drink tea and average 3 cups a day for the last three years. Could my anxiety be linked to the caffeine in the tea? Only time will tell.
I plan on eliminating all caffeine products for a month and then slowly re-introduce it to see how I feel.
I did the same with wheat last May. When I reintroduced wheat in my diet, I could tell how I was slowly getting anxious and short-tempered. From my experience, gluten sensitivity is not a myth. I avoid gluten when I can now. I don't think I will quit gluten products completely though. I still have some pasta or bread about once a week. I may reduce the frequency in the future. What's life without pasta, bread and croissants though?
(09-09-2020, 07:43 AM)Shannon Wrote: And the tool maker doesn't usually get credit for who built the house.
Shannon is doing us a great service
. However, I think it's important to take personal responsibility of every aspect of our health. Subs are a great tool to get us there.
Confront your problems. Walk away from BS. Seek wisdom to know the difference.
