10-04-2020, 11:59 AM
So i don't even know where I'm at in terms of cycles anymore. I'm currently on day 3 of my current cycle, and there's been good progress on this sub, but also some things that are going on that reiterate the need for me to run this sub for a long time. So right now I'm committing to running OF until the middle of 2021.
I've been back at work for weeks now, and one thing that still gets in my head is when I have to lead a presentation or phone conversations, especially if my boss is on the call or other upper management is included in the discussion. I get really anxious and either stutter a little bit or just rush through what I need to say. I'm comfortable talking with everyone in a one on one setting, but I'm still getting nervous at times. My confidence as a whole though is way up, however which I'm really happy with. One other thing that I'm happy with is that I feel like my internal dialogue has decreased quite a bit and I don't second guess conversations as much.
On the flip side, I have been procrastinating a ton since I've been back at work. I'm still getting my work done, but most of the time I'm putting things off and forcing myself to rush through the work at another time. Sleep has also been much better, and I feel like I've been remembering dreams a lot more when I first wake up.
Still really happy that I'm running this sub, even though there's a long way to go.
I've been back at work for weeks now, and one thing that still gets in my head is when I have to lead a presentation or phone conversations, especially if my boss is on the call or other upper management is included in the discussion. I get really anxious and either stutter a little bit or just rush through what I need to say. I'm comfortable talking with everyone in a one on one setting, but I'm still getting nervous at times. My confidence as a whole though is way up, however which I'm really happy with. One other thing that I'm happy with is that I feel like my internal dialogue has decreased quite a bit and I don't second guess conversations as much.
On the flip side, I have been procrastinating a ton since I've been back at work. I'm still getting my work done, but most of the time I'm putting things off and forcing myself to rush through the work at another time. Sleep has also been much better, and I feel like I've been remembering dreams a lot more when I first wake up.
Still really happy that I'm running this sub, even though there's a long way to go.
