07-09-2020, 02:43 PM
Cycle 2 - Day 1:
Started my loops last night before I went to bed rather than as I am going to bed. In the middle of the second loop I noticed what felt like a big ball of anxiety floating from the deep center part of my torso and slowly moving towards the surface. While this ball of anxiety was rising my heart rate went up a little bit as well as my blood pressure, but not too bad just a little to be noticeable. It finally went away as I laid down to go to sleep, which was right after the third loop had started.
During the day today I noticed that confidence and anxiety have gone up and down throughout the day. The one time that I had went out during the day my confidence was at its highest during the day, and when I was in the store it almost felt like I was in my own little world and nobody else existed. I didn't worry about what anyone else was doing and just went about my business.
Days off weren't too terrible. The second day I was absolutely exhausted and could barely keep my eyes open during most of the day, so I went to sleep earlier and felt great the next day. Haven't really been remembering any dreams lately, but that's normal for me. Definitely going to keep pushing through as it feels like something is being dug up deep down.
Started my loops last night before I went to bed rather than as I am going to bed. In the middle of the second loop I noticed what felt like a big ball of anxiety floating from the deep center part of my torso and slowly moving towards the surface. While this ball of anxiety was rising my heart rate went up a little bit as well as my blood pressure, but not too bad just a little to be noticeable. It finally went away as I laid down to go to sleep, which was right after the third loop had started.
During the day today I noticed that confidence and anxiety have gone up and down throughout the day. The one time that I had went out during the day my confidence was at its highest during the day, and when I was in the store it almost felt like I was in my own little world and nobody else existed. I didn't worry about what anyone else was doing and just went about my business.
Days off weren't too terrible. The second day I was absolutely exhausted and could barely keep my eyes open during most of the day, so I went to sleep earlier and felt great the next day. Haven't really been remembering any dreams lately, but that's normal for me. Definitely going to keep pushing through as it feels like something is being dug up deep down.
