09-05-2020, 08:20 AM
(09-04-2020, 09:53 AM)Shannon Wrote: 5G subs fade out pretty quickly for execution when you stop using them. That's part of why I had to invent P3/4/5/6.
So the effects are usually felt when I am listening to it? Like feeling strong emotions?
Anyhow I am listening right now and I realized that after looking at my thoughts, I seem to realize there are moments within the day that I am ok with dying. Not because I want to die or I am at peace but because of what happened in the past that I don't want to happen again. I don't want to experience again the pain that I went through in the past. It's pretty bad to thing about it but I know they will happen again and it might be harder this time. Probably I can get used to these emotional pain but I'm still thinking about them. I'm ok with dying because I am thinking that it is a way for me to avoid the pain I am and might experiencing. It's not good to think of such because if that happens it will cause immense suffering to my parents, sister, girlfriend, relatives and friends.
In a way I know this sub will help me get through this.
