EPRHA: The Beginning

[maxx55]

I just ordered a pair of earbuds since I lost my last pair and I want to test earphone listening and see if I notice faster responses. These earbuds also go up to 24khz. I will be testing the ultrasonics with them at times I just dont feel like listening to music. I know that I ALWAYS need to calibrate and be extremely careful doing this and I know that I will.

Am I missing something here, I'm sure you're NOT supposed to listen to Ultrasonics with headphones?? Can someone please confirm this?

You're not supposed to because of the risk of it being too loud and since it's silent, it'd ruin your hearing. As long as the volume is properly calibrated, it's fine.

[ArcticFox]

You're not supposed to because of the risk of it being too loud and since it's silent, it'd ruin your hearing. As long as the volume is properly calibrated, it's fine.

Ah, got ya! Thanks for clearing that up

[maxx55]

Good to see your progress is going well! Its funny that you mentioned the thing about the guy at the crosswalk because I had "almost" the exact same thing happen to me yesterday. I was walking away from subway and one of the guys ran up from behind me to push the button for the crosswalk. As I a passed by he tried making conversation with me and wanted to know if I was going the same way. Unfortunately, I was not so we didn't really get to have a conversation.

Also, I'm a little late to reply but though I might give a suggestion on what you might want to use next sub wise since your already contemplating that. You've already cleared out a lot of garbage in your head by doing EPRHA for 6 months so I think you might want to start making a foundation on on top of that. For that I might suggestion Life tune up since it seems to be in line with your goals. You said that you wanted a handle on your social/sex life. I noticed from a lot of the journals that people noticed there social skills increased, they became more popular, and on some of them they got a girlfriend (Johnathan4all, and DGamer come to mind). Not to mention you would be working on making a better you. Also, since you plan on doing AM6 eventually it would probably help you get the fundamentals of that program down quicker. Since LTU makes up about 30% (I believe) of AM6 that means you would already have a bit of a handle on 30% of AM6 when you actually do it.

Anyway, thought I would suggest that since it "might" be in line with your goals. In the end though only you know whats best for you sub wise. I myself will probably be doing LTU after i'm done with EPHRA just to get some more self-development.

That's interesting that you had a similar experience, it just helps confirm that the sub is working for both of us!

I have also come to a final decision based on my intuition, experience, and the advice of others.

After EPRHA, I will run AoS or AoS with BIATBWS for 3 months consistently. If any results were going to show, it'd happen in that time period and would have some time to sink in better to my subconscious. Regardless of whether I love the results or not, I will run AM6 afterwards. I may briefly run EPRHA again depending on how I feel before I go through AM6. If EPRHA has helped me this much, I'm sure AM6 would be awesome for me. Plus since it has so many things packed into it, that'd be a great way for it to really improve me in every area.

I just want to know I'm spending my time effectively

[maxx55]

I was just reading through some of the older testimonials and man oh man, one person got EXACTLY what I want in terms of results by running AM and then SM (they used WM before AM as well as Aos and BIATBW).

Anyway, I am going to claim my throne of alpha hood and sexual superiority and then have the choice to pick if I want to FWB have MLTR or just one LTR when it comes to girls.

I know I'm essentially just posting mental masturbation here, but I don't care! I love it!

[maxx55]

Good news everyone! I found my earbuds (which means I didn't have to order a new pair, but they'll still be cool!). So I can get in earphone hours starting today. Im guessing I'll be able to get 3 hours of earbud listening a day. I'm only going to listen when I'm back in my dorm for the night or if I'm working on an assignment.

I refuse to listen while I'm walking around between classes because want to be open to starting convos with/meeting new people.

So far, I've gotten almost 14 hours of listening in today, and about 40 min. of earphone listening.

Also, in general the main thing I'm noticing in terms of how I feel about talking to new people, most of the time I feel unmotivated to do so, but I logically know I should and I don't feel like there's anything holding me back. I do force myself to sometimes, but I don't feel like I did before using the sub...I use to feel happy about meeting someone new. Now, it's not as joyful. I do overall feel myself "coming back" so to speak personality wise. I'm glad about that.

[maxx55]

I can definitely say this. I have less anxiety just being out. But as I mentioned before not ALL social anxiety is gone. It's less. And I can deal with it. But I'd prefer to be automatically initiative socially/highly extroverted. I am guessing AM6 will help lead to that.

Due to my schedule, I've only been getting 1-2 hours of earphone listening in, but around 9-11 hours of speaker listening. Last night I turned the volume up one more notch and I had a bit of a harder time getting to sleep and staying asleep. I'll turn it back down to where it has been as I can't increase my sleep hours right now and I need them.

Things I need to improve on socially:
-Initiating (I'm getting better making a conscious effort, but making it automatic would just make it easier)
-Fully letting loose (for example, at a concert I don't feel comfortable dancing because I don't "know" how to dance. Some of the few people who have seen me are impressed, but I really don't feel it's impressive or amazing since I was never trained or anything)
-Releasing ALL fear/hesitation of approaching a girl I may find attractive (sometimes that feeling is there, sometimes it's not. But if never came back ever again that'd be convenient)


I thought that list was going to be a little bit longer...but now that I'm thinking about it, nope that's really it. That covers everything I'd like to improve on socially.

Feel free to suggest any subs or any advice. If the subs you suggest are in AM6 just say so because I will be doing that in the future. I really think it'd really help make those improvements.

[maxx55]

Hey guys! So today was interesting overall.

I started re-watching some RSD material and I think it may have recalled some of my past emotions. Today was the first time in a little while that I remembered/recalled what it felt like to get started improving myself with girls. I recalled the feelings that led me to start the journey, some of the lows, some of the highs, and why I keep going. I felt a little bitter for a couple hours.

I hung out with a couple of friends because we were celebrating one of their birthdays. I feel like over the hours we spent, I started to be more expressive (like I have been in the past, but haven't been as of late). I really liked it. I even made some quick jokes that came to me in the moment off the top of my head. I really missed feeling that and I'm glad to have experienced that again, because I'm use to being like that most of the time. I'm going to continue rewatching the material!

[maxx55]

I've been pretty sick for the past couple of days. I'm still listening to the subs though. I had a headache earlier today so I stopped listening. I have 7.5 hours today so far. I'll probably get a couple more in through earphones.

[maxx55]

Well I had 3 dreams last night that for some reason really hit me on an emotional level. I don't want to put that much detail here because I'd rather not recall them later. I don't see any point to. In the first dream, I saw a girl that I knew back in middle school. I walked over started talking and we started hanging out. I thought "hm, this is cool" and a few seconds later, I realized I was dreaming. I enjoyed the dream, but was okay that it was just a dream. I even felt as inclined to after I woke up to get up to look for this girl on facebook. She's in a relationship right now, but I saw that she is good friends with a girl that goes here that was also in the same middle school.

The second one, I was hurrying to order some donuts or something. This one was even less realistic with what was happening, but it felt just as real as the first. I placed my order for the donuts but before I knew it, the lady taking the order turned into my mom and she wouldnt give me the order. We started arguing. Only after another 30 sec or so did I know it was a dream and I woke up.

For the last dream, one girl that I've liked for a while rejected me and it felt terrible. I thought to myself "how could this be?! these subs don't work!" Then I remembered I would be running DaOS soon and I thought that MAYBE it'd help me turn the tables.

In terms of setting, each dream got less realistic in terms of setting. The dialogue was all realistic and I fully felt that it was real when having the dream. This is the most detail I've ever posted on here about a dream, but I don't know...these ones seemed stronger. Normally if I have more than 1 on the same night, I'd only remember one that well very rarely both. But as of right now, I can recall all 3 in really good detail.

On a side note, I'm feeling recovered enough today to go to class so I will. I also feel like I'm going to have changed dramatically by the time I get where I want to using these subs

[maxx55]

I feel like my some of my social anxiety is going away, even now.

I also now have a much better understanding of what it's like to commit to 6 months of sub listening. I feel like it's probably easier to stick with those 6 stage subs because of the massive amount of change that's noticed during that time. Even though it's for my good to stick with EPRHA, I will say I am really ready to try something new.

Right now, wireless sleep phones are a priority buy for me. I'll see if I can get them in a month or so.

I have less than a month left and then I'm done (October 10th). YAY!!!!

[maxx55]

I'm noticing something. The cognitive dissonance that I mentioned earlier. I have a better understanding of what it is now. I sometimes consciously expect some of the same things I've always felt (for ex. nervousness in new situations), and because of that I may not want to do it, but I'm finding that those thoughts are irrelevant and I'm comfortable when I'm actually in the situation.

In other words, I guess my conscious level of confidence sometimes doesn't match my actual comfort level. It's odd.

Also, I've been watching pron pretty much every other day. A relationship with a hot girl would be convenient right now, but I don't feel guilty about pron. I do consciously think I could find something that would be a more productive use of my time though.

From now on, I'm using a stopwatch to keep track of my sub hours to get myself in the habit. Today was 15 hours. About 3 through earbuds

[maxx55]

Today I logged in 8 hrs over speakers, and a little over 8 hours through earbuds.

[maxx55]

Logged in 15 hours yesterday. About 4 through earbuds.

For today, I'm approaching 13 right now, aiming for at least 15.

Now that Shannon posted that the "single women" phrases in BIATBW don't limit you, I'm almost totally sure I'll be running AoS with BIATBWS.

I thought about doing BIATBW with AoS, but I think that opens up the possibility that I could manifest some girls that'd be attracted in a platonic way (just my thinking, correct me if I'm wrong) and I'm open to having attractive girls as friends, but I want to make that decision for myself. Plus it'd be more obvious that the program is helping me if I'm manifesting a noticeable amount that are irresistibly attracted to me sexually.

Hopefully, I'll get Sleephones sometime soon. If I can consistently get 15 hours in, then I'll probably do 8 hours on one program and 7 hours on the other.

[Jake2015]

Maxx I'm just wondering is it OK or efficient to use 2 subs at same time (Biatbw and Aos)?