06-30-2016, 05:43 AM
(This post was last modified: 06-30-2016, 11:44 PM by hiddenalias.)
1 Week - June 30
US Tones - volume 30
7 hours listened
Dreams:
I dont want to say it was vivid but memorable. So what I remember (in no chronological order again)
1. It was like I was a pizza delivery boy and I am supposed to make a delivery to my ex supervisor for my counseling practicum I was doing last year. Anyway it had his name on the label. So time carries on and I think it felt like hours later that I never went to do the delivery. But when I was ready to, I must have ate the pizza accidentally. But the label was someone else's name not my ex supervisor's. Then I thought "ah they waited too long I am sure that hours later of not being delivered they probably went to get something else" I also thought why no one in the store reminded me to make the delivery in the alotted time. There was some guy talking random guy about whatever but he was in the scenario...random but he was there, definitely dark skinneed...but gota include all the little details no matter how unworthy they are
2. There was an angry cat and it kept hissing at me. Gave me goosebumps (as in real life I to become edgy when cats hiss or become defensive I think to myself 'ok i am getting the hell outa here before it lunges at me' kind of perception. But anyway I got goosebumps and became edgy; the setting felt like it was a garage.....so I thought I pissed it off I think forgot how. But then I closed the door behind it and there was this little gaping window which had metal brackets on it on both sides of mine and the cat's. Anyway the cat put its paw toward my side of the window and i could see its face; So I spit on its paw. Then I could see what it is thinking "heyyy why is he spitting on my paw"?? But all through out I am sure it was mad and I kept teasing it.
3. My mom and I were out and about and there was this little toddler who was trying to run toward his mom; and my mom spoke some spanish and I thought to myself wow mom when did you learn spanish?
So onto the real world; I don't know if it was because of EPHRA but I felt like I could slightly say something to people if I wanted to; Fear was not completely eradicated but the minor feeling of wanting to say something was there without being irrationally afraid of repercussions.
The cool thing that happened today was that this SOB almost crashed into me driving his car and with his careless driving I beeped at him about 2 times and, get this, had this NO FEAR of saying something to him about it while he parked at a convenience store, I wanted to go meet him inside and tell him about it. but I didnt bother saying anything because it wasnt worth my time to tell him off and him probably going into a shouting "bad ass" match with an attitude and may start wanting to duke it out....definitely looked ghetto though..... So I let it go....But I am sure I didnt feel any fear of telling him off.
I think that was the main highlight of the day.....I might have felt slightly tired due to the sub.....not sure after a restful nap still lightly felt drained or maybe it was just me....
US Tones - volume 30
7 hours listened
Dreams:
I dont want to say it was vivid but memorable. So what I remember (in no chronological order again)
1. It was like I was a pizza delivery boy and I am supposed to make a delivery to my ex supervisor for my counseling practicum I was doing last year. Anyway it had his name on the label. So time carries on and I think it felt like hours later that I never went to do the delivery. But when I was ready to, I must have ate the pizza accidentally. But the label was someone else's name not my ex supervisor's. Then I thought "ah they waited too long I am sure that hours later of not being delivered they probably went to get something else" I also thought why no one in the store reminded me to make the delivery in the alotted time. There was some guy talking random guy about whatever but he was in the scenario...random but he was there, definitely dark skinneed...but gota include all the little details no matter how unworthy they are
2. There was an angry cat and it kept hissing at me. Gave me goosebumps (as in real life I to become edgy when cats hiss or become defensive I think to myself 'ok i am getting the hell outa here before it lunges at me' kind of perception. But anyway I got goosebumps and became edgy; the setting felt like it was a garage.....so I thought I pissed it off I think forgot how. But then I closed the door behind it and there was this little gaping window which had metal brackets on it on both sides of mine and the cat's. Anyway the cat put its paw toward my side of the window and i could see its face; So I spit on its paw. Then I could see what it is thinking "heyyy why is he spitting on my paw"?? But all through out I am sure it was mad and I kept teasing it.
3. My mom and I were out and about and there was this little toddler who was trying to run toward his mom; and my mom spoke some spanish and I thought to myself wow mom when did you learn spanish?
So onto the real world; I don't know if it was because of EPHRA but I felt like I could slightly say something to people if I wanted to; Fear was not completely eradicated but the minor feeling of wanting to say something was there without being irrationally afraid of repercussions.
The cool thing that happened today was that this SOB almost crashed into me driving his car and with his careless driving I beeped at him about 2 times and, get this, had this NO FEAR of saying something to him about it while he parked at a convenience store, I wanted to go meet him inside and tell him about it. but I didnt bother saying anything because it wasnt worth my time to tell him off and him probably going into a shouting "bad ass" match with an attitude and may start wanting to duke it out....definitely looked ghetto though..... So I let it go....But I am sure I didnt feel any fear of telling him off.
I think that was the main highlight of the day.....I might have felt slightly tired due to the sub.....not sure after a restful nap still lightly felt drained or maybe it was just me....
