01-15-2015, 11:36 AM
Day 58
I have not been sensing any resistance to the sub at all. Not since the last bout of depression.
I am speaking my mind and contradicting my coworkers when it needs to be done.
I did something that I have never, ever, ever done in my life before last night. In some way it is good but the same time I feel like a bad parent. My son is getting really crappy grades in school even though he is in all accelerated classes. I put him in tutoring after school 4 days a week. Every night I ask if the homework is done and was it turned in? The answer is always yes.
Yesterday I went home and checked the grades on line. Still suck with recent missing assignments.
I WENT OFF. I was on my tippy toes, yelling at him face to face. I let him know how I felt under no uncertain terms.
My husbands response was to pull him out of the accerated classes. I let him know how I felt about that idea as well. Your teaching him to do crap work and get something easier handed to you.
For the most part, I have been calmer yet more vocal. I still hesitate, but I say what is on my mind.
I even enjoyed my birthday for the first time in a very long time. I am sure that the dislike of attention stems from my childhood. It is something that the subliminal has definitely helped me overcome. I don't want to be the center of attention but don't mind so much when it is on me. I am even feeling more confident when doing the training in front of a group of people at work.
I have not been sensing any resistance to the sub at all. Not since the last bout of depression.
I am speaking my mind and contradicting my coworkers when it needs to be done.
I did something that I have never, ever, ever done in my life before last night. In some way it is good but the same time I feel like a bad parent. My son is getting really crappy grades in school even though he is in all accelerated classes. I put him in tutoring after school 4 days a week. Every night I ask if the homework is done and was it turned in? The answer is always yes.
Yesterday I went home and checked the grades on line. Still suck with recent missing assignments.
I WENT OFF. I was on my tippy toes, yelling at him face to face. I let him know how I felt under no uncertain terms.
My husbands response was to pull him out of the accerated classes. I let him know how I felt about that idea as well. Your teaching him to do crap work and get something easier handed to you.
For the most part, I have been calmer yet more vocal. I still hesitate, but I say what is on my mind.
I even enjoyed my birthday for the first time in a very long time. I am sure that the dislike of attention stems from my childhood. It is something that the subliminal has definitely helped me overcome. I don't want to be the center of attention but don't mind so much when it is on me. I am even feeling more confident when doing the training in front of a group of people at work.
