10-26-2024, 07:03 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-26-2024, 07:06 PM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
Okay, so I finally have time to update, so I will.
I'm not gonna lie, at first I had an easier time than ever not touching myself, but then I would start edging. I'd stop myself, but a little bit would come out.
At one point, I pass down face down on my bed and I don't even pull it out. I'm just in a hypnogogic state (half asleep, half awake) thinking about some sexual fantasies and next thing I know (I guess because I'd been getting an erection with my body pressed against the bed, and since I was half asleep, not really having the werewithal to notice) I umm... yeah. Great, now I need to do laundry.
I started trying to be more vigilant about it, but in the last couple days, I jacked it. Not much came out surprisingly, even with full release. Dunno why. Maybe most of it came out when the above happened? I dunno.
I worry what that does to my aura, but I noticed myself getting numerous hits today. I looked at this one chick and she looked right back and smiled in a way that made it obvious. Had a couple possible hits. Couldn't be sure. Then I'm walking back home from work, decide to go into this place that I thought was an art gallery, see a hot chick at the desk. I ask "Hey, this is an art gallery right?" She says "Um, no, this is a tatoo parlor. You can feel free to come around and come back tomorrow though and check things out if you want" I said "Sure. What's your name btw?" She said "Kylen" I'm like "Cool" and she's like "What's your name?" I tell her and shake her hand. Normally, this doesn't sound all that special, but it's the eye contact and body language that made me think this was a hit. I'll see tomorrow to be sure though. But I'm pretty sure it worked on her. Up until her, what few hits I'd gotten has all been at close range. This was at like around maybe around at least 9-12 feet away, I think. Great! Normal distance! I am hoping to build up more energy to project my aura further though, which is why I'm disappointed with myself for the above incidents.
I also occasionally use a substance that probably has negative effects on the energetic working of the program, but only socially. I prolly shouldn't. At least I quit doing it other than on social occasions. I know that's gotta be affecting my aura, but I hope not too badly.
Still, despite the above things, I'm still seeing results. Don't get me wrong, chicks aren't like begging to jump my bones or anything. It's nothing super duper overt, but no social situation has been the kind where there was a chance to really get to that point. Still, I like the results I'm noticing.
When I go to visit family in Florida this week, I know there will be plenty of hot chicks in the area where my parents live, cuz they live near a college! That'll be sweet! I'm hoping to see what the program does then!
I'm not gonna lie, at first I had an easier time than ever not touching myself, but then I would start edging. I'd stop myself, but a little bit would come out.
At one point, I pass down face down on my bed and I don't even pull it out. I'm just in a hypnogogic state (half asleep, half awake) thinking about some sexual fantasies and next thing I know (I guess because I'd been getting an erection with my body pressed against the bed, and since I was half asleep, not really having the werewithal to notice) I umm... yeah. Great, now I need to do laundry.
I started trying to be more vigilant about it, but in the last couple days, I jacked it. Not much came out surprisingly, even with full release. Dunno why. Maybe most of it came out when the above happened? I dunno.
I worry what that does to my aura, but I noticed myself getting numerous hits today. I looked at this one chick and she looked right back and smiled in a way that made it obvious. Had a couple possible hits. Couldn't be sure. Then I'm walking back home from work, decide to go into this place that I thought was an art gallery, see a hot chick at the desk. I ask "Hey, this is an art gallery right?" She says "Um, no, this is a tatoo parlor. You can feel free to come around and come back tomorrow though and check things out if you want" I said "Sure. What's your name btw?" She said "Kylen" I'm like "Cool" and she's like "What's your name?" I tell her and shake her hand. Normally, this doesn't sound all that special, but it's the eye contact and body language that made me think this was a hit. I'll see tomorrow to be sure though. But I'm pretty sure it worked on her. Up until her, what few hits I'd gotten has all been at close range. This was at like around maybe around at least 9-12 feet away, I think. Great! Normal distance! I am hoping to build up more energy to project my aura further though, which is why I'm disappointed with myself for the above incidents.
I also occasionally use a substance that probably has negative effects on the energetic working of the program, but only socially. I prolly shouldn't. At least I quit doing it other than on social occasions. I know that's gotta be affecting my aura, but I hope not too badly.
Still, despite the above things, I'm still seeing results. Don't get me wrong, chicks aren't like begging to jump my bones or anything. It's nothing super duper overt, but no social situation has been the kind where there was a chance to really get to that point. Still, I like the results I'm noticing.
When I go to visit family in Florida this week, I know there will be plenty of hot chicks in the area where my parents live, cuz they live near a college! That'll be sweet! I'm hoping to see what the program does then!
E1 (3m) > E2 (6m) > E3 (3m) > UMSv1 (1.33 y) > MLS (1 yr) > UH (1yr)
