Noticed a couple things today.
This has already been something I’ve noticed here or there but seems to be continually progressing in the background. I’ve noticed this kind of thing since OGSF2. I feel like an apt metaphor to be “the void”.
I’ve got like this growing “static” in my head that seems to be the result of space forming in my head. Similar thing in my body. It’s like both are vibrating more and becoming lighter. Sometimes I’ll notice that, as I’m walking, there’s an unneeded mental friction, because I don’t need to “intend” to walk, and in fact is an arbitrary imaginary mental concept. After that it begins to feel like my legs are just walking and it’s almost like my legs are floating in space and allowed to “be” rather than them imposing their existence into reality. What I mean is it’s more like my legs existing is something that is allowed, something that is a relaxation. They are “being”.
Another thing is I noticed while pacing my room and contemplating (I sometimes do this, especially when I have nothing to do and don’t feel like entertainment (which is increasingly more often)), I began to slip back and forth from feeling all of my emotional pains at the forefront in this dense ball, to feeling really light and almost like I was on laughing gas or something. I had this urge to just laugh compulsively almost like an “I’m free!” feeling. It subsided but I believe it was a window into where I’m heading.
I’ll go from feeling all my hangups and feeling like a child (even though I rarely if ever react to them), to noticing stuff like this and being like “oh yeah I really AM getting better”. Because even though I KNOW I’m getting better, when you’re in the thick of dealing with pain it can feel less real.
I almost didn’t post this, but I want other people running E6 to see how my journey is going and be like “maybe things WILL get better for me”. Also it’s just exciting to me.
P.S I love E6.
Edit: I want to point out that the second thing felt like it came out of nowhere. One minute I was dealing with pain and contemplating and the next I noticed that state fade in and out a few times. It almost felt like it was coming from another dimension, like if I was a 2d character on a piece of paper and the paper turned and suddenly I changed due to the paper turning. Like I was witnessing myself changing on an energetic level as if it were always there and all I had to do was slip into it.
I think this is that dimensional stuff Shannon talks about where there are an infinite number of realities and all you need to do is focus onto the probability line you want to be in… or something.
This is all speculation. Just describing something I noticed that I thought was cool. The explanation is just my theory so don’t get hung up on that part.
Also women seem more attracted to me at times. People seem to like me more.
Over and out ma brothas *fistbump*
This has already been something I’ve noticed here or there but seems to be continually progressing in the background. I’ve noticed this kind of thing since OGSF2. I feel like an apt metaphor to be “the void”.
I’ve got like this growing “static” in my head that seems to be the result of space forming in my head. Similar thing in my body. It’s like both are vibrating more and becoming lighter. Sometimes I’ll notice that, as I’m walking, there’s an unneeded mental friction, because I don’t need to “intend” to walk, and in fact is an arbitrary imaginary mental concept. After that it begins to feel like my legs are just walking and it’s almost like my legs are floating in space and allowed to “be” rather than them imposing their existence into reality. What I mean is it’s more like my legs existing is something that is allowed, something that is a relaxation. They are “being”.
Another thing is I noticed while pacing my room and contemplating (I sometimes do this, especially when I have nothing to do and don’t feel like entertainment (which is increasingly more often)), I began to slip back and forth from feeling all of my emotional pains at the forefront in this dense ball, to feeling really light and almost like I was on laughing gas or something. I had this urge to just laugh compulsively almost like an “I’m free!” feeling. It subsided but I believe it was a window into where I’m heading.
I’ll go from feeling all my hangups and feeling like a child (even though I rarely if ever react to them), to noticing stuff like this and being like “oh yeah I really AM getting better”. Because even though I KNOW I’m getting better, when you’re in the thick of dealing with pain it can feel less real.
I almost didn’t post this, but I want other people running E6 to see how my journey is going and be like “maybe things WILL get better for me”. Also it’s just exciting to me.
P.S I love E6.
Edit: I want to point out that the second thing felt like it came out of nowhere. One minute I was dealing with pain and contemplating and the next I noticed that state fade in and out a few times. It almost felt like it was coming from another dimension, like if I was a 2d character on a piece of paper and the paper turned and suddenly I changed due to the paper turning. Like I was witnessing myself changing on an energetic level as if it were always there and all I had to do was slip into it.
I think this is that dimensional stuff Shannon talks about where there are an infinite number of realities and all you need to do is focus onto the probability line you want to be in… or something.
This is all speculation. Just describing something I noticed that I thought was cool. The explanation is just my theory so don’t get hung up on that part.
Also women seem more attracted to me at times. People seem to like me more.
Over and out ma brothas *fistbump*
