EHPRA v7 6G (+ DRS) bonanza

[Have at ye]

Day 8/62

Healin' up some more. The dominant wonky sensation being kinda, like, as if I had a physical wound cleaned out, stitched together and now it's closing up from the inside. Trouble is, it pretty much encompasses at least 1/3rd of my entire body, lewl. But it is closing up. At times I'm all like, "ooomph" while it's happening, but it's happening.

I did manage to get some singing practice in today, making my way on to my physical regimen and then work. Getting lots of sleep which feels pretty good; I do get the occasional dream, but not really, it's pretty deep and restful.

[Have at ye]

Day 9/62

Healin' an' chillin'.

Not really, though. I had moments of pretty unpleasant/serious emotional discharge coming from deeeeep within. But what I do mean is that I'm quite focused on the task of healing right now. Still, wonky sensations would indicate progress is being made, so yeah. I also find myself laughing at things after, so that's always neat.

I get moments when I feel filled with "light" energy, so probably healing energy, and it sometimes makes its way deep into the damaged areas.

EDIT

Oh yeah, I also had dreams today which were quite indicative of OGSF going on, mostly F.

[Have at ye]

Day 10/62

Felt a bit better today, especially after getting some proper sleep. Funnily enough, I keep waking up to very vivid sexual fantasies of certain women I know, with one in particular (and strong erections to go along with it). I don't mind in the slightest, haha.

Went to get some stuff, went to get some singing practice in, gonna get my physical regimen in as well. I'm swamped with translation jobs, though, which I *really* don't feel like doing, lewl, but I am doing them (they from the guys who gave me a sudden raise, lewl).

I will probably go to rock-show this Thursday, maybe. I don't really *feel* like it, but I'd hate to miss this band, heh.

[Have at ye]

Day 11/62

Slept a lot today and sleep makes me feel a whole lot better, went to get some proper singing practice in. Still lazy about translation jobs. I hate doing them, but I do like the money, so...

I dunno, now it feels like I'm overly enjoying compensatory fantasies, and I did pinpoint what I appear to be trying to cover-up in this way, and yeah. I dunno, this could even be a form of pain relief of a sort. Trouble with fantasy is that one shouldn't go overboard with it.

But, overall, healing's progressing. I frankly did not expect to be *this* worn out by life, but I guess that's because I've found a lotta relief by way of DRS v2 and DMSI was making me feel very good in general.

Going to that show on Thursday most definietly, even purchased a ticket and all, should get my mind off things for a bit at least. Gonna have to watch alcohol consumption, though, the shite I'm processing.

[Have at ye]

Day 11/62 continued

You know, just had this funky realization - even though it's not entirely pleasant, and even most painful and draining at times, I had this thought that as far as healing up is concerned, owing to the magic of 6G subliminal technology and my apparent indestructability, I am now *really* going for it. And that feels kinda good, gives me a sense of purpose and determination. Especially now that things are getting progressively worked on and worked through, with each tiny step the next ones becoming easier. So right now I'm actually in a pretty good mood and I feel great after getting proper sleep in.

I do hate having agreed to do shitty translation jobs because frankly, right now, I'm comfortable financially and would rather focus on healing, like, totes, especially after the events of the past six months or so. And singing practice (meeting with pianist bro this Saturday to record thingies for auditions. He called me up to talk about various nonsense, I think he misses me, haha).

I also got back to EMS workouts last night, and I'm gonna use a slightly different system than previously - 40 minutes cardio setting maxx power, 20 minutes fitness/bodysculpting setting 50-70% power (more than that works great but is physically quite painful, and I'd rather avoid pain right now since I'm dealing with lots of emotional pain apparently), and I'll be switching the suits every other day (I have two with different electrode layouts - one's more focused on the abdomen and butt, the other features the chest and biceps) to work different muscle groups. I also got back to my diet in order to proceed with flab-loss, which I've been neglecting these past several months.

Getting mad respect hits from women in my hood, even though I'm not actively DMSIng and I doubt it's still running given all the EHPRAing I've been doing. Had this one really fine one with a perfect butt thing going on look at me with a touch of sadness and, I dunno... longing? Girl, I was right there, chat me up or something.

I was planning out my sub usage today, and I am considering whether to go all out on H&C and OGSFing (so following up this run-through of E7, which I'm gonna do two full months of, come hell or high water, with the planned EHPRA/OGSF combo sub) or for variety's/my productivity's/my general sense of well-being's sake do the 'ol switcharoo and interseperse the healing subs with something more fun, so most probably DMSI 5.1, heheh (although I'm definitely also doing another run of OSC after the healing bonanza as well. Or maybe we'll get OSC+ by then which I'd definitely buy, who knows).