10-07-2017, 11:56 PM
So my earlier theory was correct, I have developed some kind of inner resistance towards women. How do I know? When I went to visit my mother at her condo yesterday I saw a beautiful woman who actually was staring at me. As soon I began to want to say something just to initiate conversation my heart raced and I could feel my throat clam up. Damn, I can’t even figure out how this happened. I wonder if the relationships I’ve had with women the past 8 years actually damaged me in this department somehow. I can barely approach my soon to be ex wife for a casual conversation without feeling awkward. Even as a teenager I never had approach anxiety before.
Funny thing is that I can still be social with women and casually joke around but anything beyond that and it’s like this “script” starts playing that’s made me hesitant to take things to the next level. Only one thing to do, socialize more with women until I can find a way to ease or eliminate this approach anxiety. Even though anything concerning women isn’t a priority for me right now, I still don’t want this to become a prolonged issue.
Funny thing is that I can still be social with women and casually joke around but anything beyond that and it’s like this “script” starts playing that’s made me hesitant to take things to the next level. Only one thing to do, socialize more with women until I can find a way to ease or eliminate this approach anxiety. Even though anything concerning women isn’t a priority for me right now, I still don’t want this to become a prolonged issue.
