04-28-2019, 08:09 AM
So I woke up early around 6:00 AM with feelings of fear and anxiety. This is the first time this has happened since I have ran this sub. I had a bad dream but can't remember exactly what it was about. What I felt was fear of the future and a certain depression about the present. Today I feel depressed about my current life and how I do nothing but go to work and come home for five days a week and then there is the weekend with the occasional vacation thrown in.
When I was younger, my main goal was to attain a life of wealth. Now I am not so sure about that goal. It seems my main goal is to develop deep and long lasting relationships with people. I have a good and stable job with opportunity but this has left me realizing that I want more from life. I want good relationships and great health. This gloomy feeling I am having on E3 is making me aware I don't have good relationships. I have more acquaintances than friendships.
Overall the last few days have been rough on E3. It has gotten to where I dread running it at night. The hunger pangs have grown but they go away shortly have waking up. I feel like I am in the middle of a storm and I have to just persist in order to see myself through this.
When I was younger, my main goal was to attain a life of wealth. Now I am not so sure about that goal. It seems my main goal is to develop deep and long lasting relationships with people. I have a good and stable job with opportunity but this has left me realizing that I want more from life. I want good relationships and great health. This gloomy feeling I am having on E3 is making me aware I don't have good relationships. I have more acquaintances than friendships.
Overall the last few days have been rough on E3. It has gotten to where I dread running it at night. The hunger pangs have grown but they go away shortly have waking up. I feel like I am in the middle of a storm and I have to just persist in order to see myself through this.
