06-23-2014, 07:28 AM
Noticing I'm much more standoffish. I was driving the other day with someone trying to over take me - it was some construction worker in a big truck, who was coming up behind me and beeping, i see he was shouting and freaking out in my rear view mirror. I made a point of rolling down my window and asking him if there was a problem (I have never done anything like this before in my life -I'm never one to be aggressive, but i smiled as i said it as I wasn't going to create an unnecessary problem by initiating with anger) and he just backed down and said - no no problem, have a nice day.
There is so much negativity around me from friends mostly, i have to detach even from the hardest cases. It's no longer my responsibility to rescue people.
The positive attention i was receiving from women seems to be gone and the world seems largely indifferent to my existence. I don't mind though. I have my own life to lead and i don't need anyones attention.
Generally facing some resistence, When I make a mistake, or i feel like someone is performing bette rthan me, I just get really angry, and a little stuck - it's like i want to do the things to take me to the next level but at the same time i'm not allowing myself to get there for some reason. Hopefully a session of tapping this evening will help - i'm tempted to just go home early now and spend the evening doing a long tapping session.
I think one of the big problems is as well that i have just too many goals. even in deciding what to do next - I want to do SM, AM6 re run and BASE at the same damn time. Perhaps thats what i need, patience, getting back to being involved in the process and not trying to skiip to the end immediately.
Am I more alpha? probably, I'm certainly more detached from things - and looking more to take on challenges. I just need to understand that progress is a process. You do one or two things at a time and then move on.
There is so much negativity around me from friends mostly, i have to detach even from the hardest cases. It's no longer my responsibility to rescue people.
The positive attention i was receiving from women seems to be gone and the world seems largely indifferent to my existence. I don't mind though. I have my own life to lead and i don't need anyones attention.
Generally facing some resistence, When I make a mistake, or i feel like someone is performing bette rthan me, I just get really angry, and a little stuck - it's like i want to do the things to take me to the next level but at the same time i'm not allowing myself to get there for some reason. Hopefully a session of tapping this evening will help - i'm tempted to just go home early now and spend the evening doing a long tapping session.
I think one of the big problems is as well that i have just too many goals. even in deciding what to do next - I want to do SM, AM6 re run and BASE at the same damn time. Perhaps thats what i need, patience, getting back to being involved in the process and not trying to skiip to the end immediately.
Am I more alpha? probably, I'm certainly more detached from things - and looking more to take on challenges. I just need to understand that progress is a process. You do one or two things at a time and then move on.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
