06-17-2014, 12:03 AM
Still not sure - but thinking about it sm3 is more likely because it's the area of life I put off dealing with more than any other!
Did a lot if tapping last night before going to sleep and had the longest night of dreams ever, as I was tapping I had all sorts of things coming up, yawning, tearing up and kept going.
Lying in bed I was dozing and my mind was going to all these events in my life, being bullied, ridiculed, shouted at and slapped around - I didn't realise how much was there! I tapped it all, there's a lot more but last night was real progress - at one point I'm pretty sure I was mentally tapping in the middle if a dream.
Anyway let's see what this next few weeks being with a month and a half of am6 left.
On general effects, I went out the other night to see some old friends I haven't seen in a while, a few of them are fairly alpha and they were totally ignoring me. I didn't bother with them and left early rather than waste time trying to be part of the group. It angered me though and sent me into one of those 'I'll show em' sort of spirals of anger - the thought came that I need more of this though, I need more challenge, more uncomfortable situations to weed out all the built up weakness.
I started tapping on it and haven't thought about it since.
Girls are generally being more feminine and sometimes even motherly to me, one girl the other day made me coffee for no reason - she kept saying we should go get a drink some time and when I suggested we go to this place after work she backed off like she was afraid.
Other girls say wierd things 'I need you to protect me because [insert random statement]', 'I'm sensitive because [another random statement]
Mostly I'm indifferent but this one girl - first girl in a while who I've been into, worries me. It's just oneitis because I haven't had much success - but I gotta do some serious tapping before I get hung up on her!
Anyway. The saga continues
Did a lot if tapping last night before going to sleep and had the longest night of dreams ever, as I was tapping I had all sorts of things coming up, yawning, tearing up and kept going.
Lying in bed I was dozing and my mind was going to all these events in my life, being bullied, ridiculed, shouted at and slapped around - I didn't realise how much was there! I tapped it all, there's a lot more but last night was real progress - at one point I'm pretty sure I was mentally tapping in the middle if a dream.
Anyway let's see what this next few weeks being with a month and a half of am6 left.
On general effects, I went out the other night to see some old friends I haven't seen in a while, a few of them are fairly alpha and they were totally ignoring me. I didn't bother with them and left early rather than waste time trying to be part of the group. It angered me though and sent me into one of those 'I'll show em' sort of spirals of anger - the thought came that I need more of this though, I need more challenge, more uncomfortable situations to weed out all the built up weakness.
I started tapping on it and haven't thought about it since.
Girls are generally being more feminine and sometimes even motherly to me, one girl the other day made me coffee for no reason - she kept saying we should go get a drink some time and when I suggested we go to this place after work she backed off like she was afraid.
Other girls say wierd things 'I need you to protect me because [insert random statement]', 'I'm sensitive because [another random statement]
Mostly I'm indifferent but this one girl - first girl in a while who I've been into, worries me. It's just oneitis because I haven't had much success - but I gotta do some serious tapping before I get hung up on her!
Anyway. The saga continues
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
