Darwin 2014 - The Alpha Year

[Benjamin]

Whoever said that from RSD is full of shit.. sounds like he is trying to push his own limitations onto you. Of course you can improve from where you are now.

[Darwinn]

Thanks guys I appreciate the support.

Two major mistakes I have made are
1) not accepting/seeing things as they are and;
2) not taking full responsibility.

Subs are great and no doubt they can provide a great base for change, but taking action is up to me. I'm just coming on these forums and posting about the difficulties i'm facing and not taking responsibility. Treating these things as something I have no control or influence over when I do. it just take work.


Pushing through the resistance to take action is tough. I rationalise everything, when waking up I repeat the same morning ritual, hit the snooze saying 10 more minutes, sleep will do me good for the day, before i know it i'm late for work again, tired and unenergised because I haven't had breakfast or taken time to wake up properly. The point is, this is entirely down to me, and not taking action on this, or going to the gym just shows that i've not got the right strategy.

I'm taking the minimalist approach to change now. Just one thing at a time, accepting that change takes effort, and time, it might not be here tomorrow, and teh conditions i face until things change might not be great, but there is no other option. If i want to get something done, going to the gym every day, eating healthy etc. I can't just change over night, it has to be realistic or i'll just burn out like all the other times in my life.

Thanks again guys, hopefully I'll have something of more value, and more positive to report next time.

[SargeMaximus]

Action is important, but so are the beliefs you have.

For example: I, personally, have no problem with changing my diet overnight. I did it in 4 hours to tell you the truth.

To me: eating healthy was important to me PERSONALLY. It wasn't because I read someone saying "Yeah, eat healthy and all your dreams will come true."

My dream is to be a monument of health/fitness/and sexual prowess. I believe that a good diet is part of that.

My point is: your goals have to be purpose driven. You can't just say "I want to eat healthier!".
Where's the goal? Where's the purpose? What's the point? Why do I want "X"?

Start answering those questions and see the changes in attitude and action take form.

Also, do NOT be afraid to feel bad about your current situation. Many a goal have been killed in the name of "It's not THAT bad".

[InTheZone]

I'm taking the minimalist approach to change now. Just one thing at a time, accepting that change

Hey Darwin, there is nothing wrong with this method. In fact, it was the way I ended up losing over 100 pounds and keeping it off.

[Darwinn]

Thanks Inthezone

I've been to the gym every day for the last three days - purely with the minimum goal of running for 10 minutes. I'm sure to all you healthy guys out there this isn't much but for me this is pretty big, firstly because I can't run at all and secondly because this is the most consecutive days of going to the gym ever for me.

Accepting things as they are and not fighting reality has enabled me to look at things more rationally and in terms of a long term process.

I have ADHD, and very limited ability to concentrate on work - thinking clearly is also hard for me. It's clear though that I don't have the infrastructure to support good concentration. For one my eating and sleeping habits don't support this. I've focussed my diet, and am trying to get enough sleep as well (though the latter still doesn't work, partly the subs just have me jolting out of sleep all night long, and partly because I just get into bed very late, sitting around looking at youtube etc. doesn't allow my brain to switch off.

The self abuse over not performing at work and in life is replaced with a more personal responsibility attitude. it's a long term project which i have to have faith in, and won't happen over night.

I find, interestingly, that when I meet girls I'm more playful. though this can be problematic, i met a hot girl the other day who is like a senior person at another company who i have to provide some work - being flirty, even subtly is probably not the best idea in this context!

I'll meet with my feft coach today to go through past memories to tap on them. I'll report back on how this goes and how it impacts things - after my last session i went through a period of serious fear, but this left after about a day and i was much more zen (though I don't know if this is to do with the new principles i'm currently trying to live by).

I got these off of david deangelo's 77 laws of success - 77 is one too many for me.

so for now the ones I will internalise again are

1) accept things as they are
2) take full responsibility.

[JackOfHearts]

The best normal way I have found to be almost sure I can sleep is to read a book and then sleep on it light's on (paper not computer book).

[swisston]

I've been to the gym every day for the last three days - purely with the minimum goal of running for 10 minutes. I'm sure to all you healthy guys out there this isn't much but for me this is pretty big, firstly because I can't run at all and secondly because this is the most consecutive days of going to the gym ever for me.

I have found that aiming for a regular gym class helps immensely with this - the structure pushes you a lot more than you will probably want to do on your own, especially as a beginner.

[Darwinn]

Just got finished with my feft coach and gained some amazing insights. We uncovered some really deeply held beliefs about success and my relationships to other people. Namely that I feel anyone's gain is my loss - so I experience loss and fear on a daily basis, as I write, I see also that that word loss has poignance too, and that I don't want to lose, so badly that I can't healthily compete. I feel like I'm getting beaten all the time and so I just switch off and dissappear.


The roots of this ? I don't know, parents, bullies at school whatever, we tapped as much as possible. It feels like it might still be there a little but hey.


I'm committing to focus on my business and career goals now. My fear is that I will
Be perceived as too narrow, that I will become dull and boring and that I will Lose a lot of other things because of it. But this attitude has made me dissipate my energy on too many things before , meaning that I try to catch too many birds with one stone then get none!


I decided I would give this year to am6. Two runs, or near enough two by the end of the year. This business and career goal will just be an addition to that. Girls, relationships, all that will have to leave my focus now, my relationship to myself has to come first.

[Darwinn]

Had a day of being extremely solid. My mind wasn't working and I was in massive resistance to the change I want of being more productive at work but I was still solid - speaking slowly and firmly without losing my cool. Even my internal dialogue in my head is so rock solid, it rumbles like some smaug from lord of the rings haha.

I'm frustrated though . I'm not living the life I want and the life I want seems such a way off - it's depressing to say the least. I don't know how I'm ever going to get there.

[Darwinn]

I wonder what could be a better quality then a high sense of self worth and self respect.

I remember months ago when I was just starting am6, it was off the back of a month of LTU. LTU had me performing better in every part of my life just because all of a sudden I valued myself, because I valued myself I valued what I put in my body, I wanted to exercise because I wanted to give myself the health that I deserved, I had boundaries with people, and work because I cared about not hurting myself or putting something I loved (me) at the mercy of anyone else's opinion.

I miss that right now. I really do.

[Psiklou]

which stage / days ?

[TheChosenOne]

I wonder what could be a better quality then a high sense of self worth and self respect.

I remember months ago when I was just starting am6, it was off the back of a month of LTU. LTU had me performing better in every part of my life just because all of a sudden I valued myself, because I valued myself I valued what I put in my body, I wanted to exercise because I wanted to give myself the health that I deserved, I had boundaries with people, and work because I cared about not hurting myself or putting something I loved (me) at the mercy of anyone else's opinion.

I miss that right now. I really do.

LTU is an amazing sub...was on it about 3 months before AM6...the thing about LTU was that you'd feel good and energized all the time while using it....

I think the challenge with AM6 is because although there are results, the tiredness feeling all the time can be overwhelming....it has manifestation (Type D) which requires more energy than LTU....

Knowing that LTU was in it, I thought that I would experience that "State" all the time, so I know where you're at...One monkey don't stop no show...keep going

[Darwinn]

Day 23(ish) of stage 3.

Quite a contrasting mix of solidness and not giving a shit with being quite insecure and frustrated.

I'm dealing now with strong feelings of under acheivement, and I've identified it for what it is, an inferiority complex. it's been there for a while but i had no name for it, just complaints about feeling like everyone was better than me. now i know the enemy more clearly i can tackle it.

I've noticed on odd occasion women respond really well to me. They seem to want to talk to me, spend time around me (this is relative to normal which is not at all). I do also find some women randomly staring at me as well as noticing much hotter women around me.

the sub seems to not be having such a powerful effect on me at the moment - or at least it's not noticeable in much else apart from the fact that i feel very tired.

This, i guess, is because a)I'm probably coming from a slightly more f'd up psychology than most, the self loathing i've put myself through for a long time is quite something, so having healthy self esteem is a challenge; and b) i wonder if it's just working differently, I've read with others how they felt nothing much for the first 3 stages and then it really started to kick in near the end of stage 4? I hope so. the changes listed are those I truly want for my life!

I've decided to can the FEFT for a while since I find sometimes i'm tapping out useful things. I had a great thing going with deciding on integrating the principles of taking responsibility and accepting things as they are. Overdosing of FEFT and thinking too much along the lines of law of attraction kind of messed this up.

That's not a criticism of these things, it's just i think you've got to do one thing at a time. if you want to embody certain values, or master a skill, going for too many things at one time just dissipates energy - trying to catch two birds with one stone just means i catch none!

So again back to the key principles.

1. accept the way things are
2. take full responsibility
3. take action.

My single goal to get financial freedom within the next year and a half, that is being able to leave my job with a stable base income on which to live relatively comfortably so i can devote time to my main interests.

This is no small feat of course. I've already made the mistake of starting and then telling people about it (not this forum, this doesn't count i don't think)

But when you tell people around what you're trying to do, somehow you lose energy in pursueing that goal - does anyone else find this?

Anyway onward I go.

[JackOfHearts]

Go read some bamm Journal and you will understand that you should never tell anyone because they will think it's impossible and drag you down.
The Millionaire Fastlane book is the good one if want to know all this, it's recommended by Shannon.