Darwin’s Journal

[Darwinn]

Going into my first day off now

[Darwinn]

Back on the USLM3

I am deeply afraid of being alone and unaccepted, and I’m terrified of death without having had any meaning in my life - there USLM , you happy now? Jerk.

I can’t run away from these fears, they’re not just switching off, instead they’re fighting back - how to let go of two fears which seem so core to survival, someone tell me.

In less soul screaming news - I’m back on track with a work project, another task which seems impossible to do in two weeks, and something like 4 job applications.

[Darwinn]

Is this a day off for you?

By the way, that part of you responsible for this response is not wanting to make the changes the FRM is asking of it, but it should not be able to resist forever, no matter what. So all you have to do is keep going.

Thanks for this Shannon. The the part you speak of is very much being figured out. It’s weird to hear and see it in such clear resolution.

[Darwinn]

Extract from my journal:

‘So first distinguish between the fear that is given for the sake of maintaining the vessel you inhabit, and the fear that is pathological. Second understand Fear is not cleared, nor removed , but integrated and transmuted through the redemptive act of courage.’

So long as there is the unknown there is fear. No fear implies complete safety, complete safety means there is nothing left to explore, nothing left to explore means no reason to exist.

Standing on the border between known and unknown and the act of facing fear gives meaning, exceessive fear and being ill equipped to stand in the face of it is the problem, not fear itself.

[Shannon]

That sounds like a lot of limiting beliefs that are trying to steer you back to fear.

[Darwinn]

Thought you would say that.

Oh well, at least they’re visible.

[Darwinn]

Shannon, what makes you think that fear is something that is removable?

[Shannon]

Shannon, what makes you think that fear is something that is removable?

Because I have done it, and I know for other reasons that it is possible also. It's not an easy thing to do, but it is possible, and the FRM will do it, given enough time.

The truth is that ultimately, removing fear isn't impossible, it's inevitable, even without the FRM. The FRM just makes the process go a hell of a lot faster.

[Darwinn]

It’s inevitable ???

[Darwinn]

Shannon -come on man. You can’t say something as potentially significant as that and leave me hangin!

[Broski]

Yeah Shannon, care to elaborate on the "removing fear is inevitable even without FRM" part as well? Curious of the context

[Shannon]

Sure I can, lol. It gets into discussions that would break the rules. Suffice it to say that given the proper perspective on and understanding of things, it become very abundantly clear that for things to go the way they must inevitably go, fear must be outgrown, and thus overcome, abandoned, removed.

I figured out how to make a module that triggers the whole process to happen in a very small time frame compared to how it normally works. The question now is, just how fast can I make it go? As it stands it should not take more than years even with v3.2, and that would be a lot longer than I would expect it to take.

But v4 and later should significantly increase the speed and power of the FRM in ways that mean it shouldn't take more than months, if not perhaps weeks.

My ultimate goal with v5 is to try to make it happen in hours or less, although I don't know if that is possible yet. I'm going to try.

Who knows? Maybe in the future I'll know how to make it happen so fast that it finishes its job in under an hour.

[Darwinn]

Shit Shannon , you make the rules - if anyone can break em you can. If you’re saying what I think you’re saying then

Well fuck I’m speechless

[Darwinn]

I have a strong feeling I’ll never get a straight answer to this so I ask you this then , fear goes - what displaces it?