DMSi 3.2 sexland

[Kol]

Im feeling disconnected to an extent while women fall into my harem. Im doin my thing further just knowing all is good. Im selfulfilled at this point.

Nofap goin strong. Idc yet am proud.

Im feelin chill. Women throwing attitude. Whatever. Im no doormat tho, just vibin life.

I also having mindset shifts going on. The old is just there, fading. The current one is; im embracing my creativity, sexuality. So much shit I listened to, how to run a bizz, what frame and what not. Dont get me wrong, there is value in there. For me its like a dead end. Buying into their frame. Crowded it is on facebook like this. It shuts me down. Now im finding an new expressive confidence and creativity.

Note to self; creativity is great. Dominant in me now. It never is excluded. Vibe with it.

I did had huge rage and anger this morning and flashes through the day, feelin all is spinning out of control, revolving around finances and wealth. At the same time, im integrating all kind of aspects of lifestyle. Without wealth( which also is an enormous internal affair aswell ) I still get women. There is a line of "im a (professional) bum" its excelent weeding process aswell as to dhv in a sort of way. I use it myself. I have read wolverine_I_Am's journal in which he wrote about this

With M, Im sure shes attracted. Shes one of many girls yet to make love with. Im laidback at the same time now, like, DMSI flowing through me. I realized today about the process, that I have subtle, not fully 100% knowing shes attracted, thus keeping me in an sort of limbo. Now, as I read her, as I know she is, proceed naturally. It is/was fear to begin with. But now, im good. Im feeling good, im doing good. Its like a closed deal yet still flowing. Attraction seems to flow.

Anyways, several women pop up in my awareness and they all fall in my harem.

I also am seeing more groupie manifestations. Groups that are giggling and what not. Also, the IOIs are more agressive. M reminds me of a bratty lil sister ( thanks mystery/cajun/canned lines!) Other women just seduce me on the spot. Yet...there is the working place of them.

Also had mom and daughter hit on me the other day. Daughter was fitttt. Shes legal, something I couldve ask her about but heard from a second source. So yeah. Non is lost. No shake in frame nor bodylanguage affectedness for me. I still know shes attracted. Like mom and daughter both positioning next to me, daughter all flirty and sexual tension was felt.

Older women seem to have a thing for me nowadays tho. Like, theyre literally lusting and are obvious.

[Kol]

Today was weird. I feel on the verge of a breakdown. Nothing makes sense. It is resistance but feels very influencing, like going inward and f#ck all. In a way im feeling like its TID FRM. also it easy to to feel im running us/lm and with that comes the oscar vibe of succes.. Places of girls, cinema counter girls. Loaded and lined up on girls.

Today at work I had moments of watching myself in 3rd person. Like observing. Getting self consciousness. Also its like I had 0 game. And it made me act and feel awkward. I was confident yet not? Comfortable around the 16 y/o, got both M and G engaged attentionwise. I have possible insights as to what and why she triggered me that way without her doing anything. Like my teenage years, beauty of girls, and the fuckedupness of it. Something has happened aswell as other wounds to heal. Being honest with this is potentional very very huge. Deeper attraction switches perhaps and social insight its still a re-occuring pattern. I really want some clarity on this from myself and all else. The whole feeling limited/awkward, and socially inept was there. It also stems from hopelessness, powerlessness, confusion, and with an huge mental gap between were I want to be and where I am now. Like it became very far away in terms of it being possible.I also had fear yesterday around beliefs create your reality. If all is made up of it, what about me? I?

Anyway, with G, I felt beta, inept, weirded out. Not needy but pre-subs even when I had some sort of breakdown. It was the total opposite of my natural, seductive, playfull idgaf vibe.

Now im depressed and its breakday tomorrow yet had my loops in this morning. Emotion is to be released, its bubbling right beneath the surface. I want to get angry, which is better then feeling powerlessness, hopelessness, victim limbo state.

Edit: so now im realizing im able to learn more and learn how to deal with "random" women popping up right from the get go. And this is "right in your face" kind off stuff. I am forged in the fires of adversary. And im very positive over it while I dont have to do anything, just follow the instructions.

Trust and fear. Both are dealth with. It all comes down to fear.

Edit2: im ditching habits that are indulged in while it comes down to me dealing with it head on. No walking away. I already got the better outlook. Like breaking habits such as pmo and literally knowing the alternative is better ( fucking girls and growing in your sexlife, fucking girls instead of jerking off, and knowing that fucking gives more growth and development as a person ) the choice is so easy to make without any guilt feeling, im behind it 100%.

[Kol]

New girl at work today. Blond, cute, nice face, good figure. The moment she walked in ( had an evaluation involving "E" ) boom! Sexual tension of the bat. Time stopped, us 2 existed for a second as all else dissapeared around us. It felt great.

Yet, It didnt affect the evaluation at all. I was talking with E, was taking on a rockstar character, high value and being me. Execution as E became more touchy, locking eyes, gassing/complimenting me up with all kind of sweet talk. I took it in, I thanked her, proceeded naturally. I also realize on a deeper level im highly attractive, and having status. Like a superstar. Anyways, at a moment in the setting, this blond cute 8,5/10 walked in and we instantly clicked on an mutual "I want you" level. I noticed I was on point regarding smoothness, instantly following up the steps to handle it like boss. "I", another girl is growing jelouse, is affected obviously to an extent but her act doesnt hold. She has curves, yet plays "hard" like, an week front of professionalism, hardness for some reasons, almost mechanical in her act, which, comes across as unnatural. She is constantly glancing, making my spider sense tingle as I feel her energy piercing me.

By referring to as "being me" Im now relaxing more and more and actually accepting im in higher ranks value wise. No need for seeking validation as I validate myself. As within, so without. Along with the flawlessness of reality bending, which I accept on an deeper core level as an "what/it happens" and it bends along fine with the sub execution. It bends circumstances to line up sex.

Im curious how we, me and the blond girl, will be unfolding. Wifey material for sure and can see myself sharing a life with her, like a perfect match on another level. This was something that came up the moment she walked in.

Im realizing I have loadsa women in my life. 2 who are easy booty calls. Its all subtle but sets me up for juggling multiple women at the same time.

Another is my attitude. I break off from patterns of investment. Like, on here, before I would at times browse much, but now its part of my agenda and nothing more. Its an "its fine, its not mattering very much" I do my thing and take just the amount of time and am unto the next one *shrug* whatever shifts and transformation has taken place. Im way diffetent, my growth is niticed not just by me, but by those involved in me on an regular basis. Attitudes also shifted in that regard.

Acknowledging right now that im still holding negative beliefs and convictions around women, yet this seems key, it launches me to another/next level.

Succes mindset evolves fast. Its what I am now. 8 AM success and all that comes with it. US/LM TID.

[Kol]

Last couple of days its all about sex, reality bending, banging girls, sex and love separating which I believe was a limiting belief. Its just sex, like duke.togo once wrote.

Also, 3 girls dtf any day, any time. One girl is so dtf it drives her crazy. Same girl I gave a little amount of interest, getting still "goodmorning" messages from her. As soon as I engage I can smell and almost taste het craving through textmessages. I know sex is easy that way, goals achieved, but really, claimy, chubby, naw fam. I already have hotter girls wanting me. I know this and feel this in every vibre and cell.

Anyways, its ongoing now, so much women flooding into my life, turning around and another is there.

Which comes to my next step; inner game. I know I still have some growth to do there. Like having several girls going wild, how to handle it. Trial and error is one way, another is, I know I have the skills. Am done slipping in pre-sub states.

H/c issues seem to be no end that I have short suicidal spikes. It happens when I allow it and give attention to the issue; fear. After 2 runs of AM6 and months of 3.1 aswell as 3.2 it seems like so much shit is waiting to be dealt with.

The IOIs aint the problem at all. Flooding of women and crashing in. Sex is available all the time, it even is an prominent part in my dreams now.

Swinging from one to abother. Top of the world one moment, like "getting/growing over it" only to face the next thing. As if I do it on command yet not.

Fuck negative selftalk. Hope FRM will kick its ass in 3.3

US/LM rhinking gives me an instant momentum and vibe of carelessness and it all works out whioe having high drive in that area, as if it will give even mire effortless ways to sex. Awesome. Guess TID strikes hard. Feel like wanring to run it and might work synergetic.

Anyways, im a bit done with the inner wackness at this point. To have externals being so obvious yet feeling wack inside

Im carefull not to ruminate to long on this, as to not send out this intent to attract more.

Now, im getting more mundane aswell lately, like, while being a big thinker, it now centres me. Like day to day stuff, with sex and seduction through "being myself". Unfiltered, uninhibited.

[Kol]

Im feeling like a beast. Considering putting up.my wolf avatar again. Seduction is the only reality. Expand that shit. All else is meh.

[Kol]

Day 2 bloom 3.2 in anticipation of 3.3.