01-26-2017, 06:50 PM
Very interesting phenomenon is happening. I feel like I was getting huge respects from guys. Connection with professor and the talk was phenomenal (he's a guy) during the office hour, and a guy who picked stuff and got in front of me apologize for cutting in the line. I replied, it's okay, you were here before me. After the class, I went to washroom with a guy, who and I also had a bit of chat. Lastly, I also texted with a guy I know from my program, who I just found out that he was on the list of class I am taking. He told me he dropped, out and we texted a bit, and I told him that we should meet and have a drink or something to socialize. He was cool with it.
What was interesting about this was that I felt as I was getting a massive respect from the guys. (Professor, I think he held much respect, but most, if not all the professors have high respect of me. Although I will say that the talk felt smoother than usual, even though most talks with professors were smooth.)
On the other hand, I felt the girls were a bit scared or felt slightly threatened by me. I don't know, but it just was a feeling. It's not rational thinking or talking, but a feel. The girl in my program sat way behind me, and she just took off right after class. (She could have been busy.) The other girls, with whom I initiated conversation a bit, didn't really go anywhere after that, it went off. And like said I felt as if they were feeling anxiety, nervousness, or felt scared. I don't get it, but that was the feeling. Oh and a new girl came in, and I know her from the other class. (Just the face.) She sat way across me. It could be that she knows the other person who was sitting near her, but it didn't seem like that way either. I am like..... Hmm, interesting.
This semester I am seeing an interesting trend. All professors are male, as opposed to female (last semester), and there is a class in which there are way more guys (as opposed to all of the classes had more female last semester). One thing that seems to be similar is that the cluster of peers/classmates have already been formed in this class after the very first one, and even when I have had a great impression or had some great conversations with peers in the first class, I am excluded in the cluster, and am left to be my own.
I am just finding this phenomenon quite interesting. No anger, resentment, no frustration. (Maybe a tiny bit.) But and am finding how I feel like I am getting a massive respect from guys, while scaring girls.
What was interesting about this was that I felt as I was getting a massive respect from the guys. (Professor, I think he held much respect, but most, if not all the professors have high respect of me. Although I will say that the talk felt smoother than usual, even though most talks with professors were smooth.)
On the other hand, I felt the girls were a bit scared or felt slightly threatened by me. I don't know, but it just was a feeling. It's not rational thinking or talking, but a feel. The girl in my program sat way behind me, and she just took off right after class. (She could have been busy.) The other girls, with whom I initiated conversation a bit, didn't really go anywhere after that, it went off. And like said I felt as if they were feeling anxiety, nervousness, or felt scared. I don't get it, but that was the feeling. Oh and a new girl came in, and I know her from the other class. (Just the face.) She sat way across me. It could be that she knows the other person who was sitting near her, but it didn't seem like that way either. I am like..... Hmm, interesting.
This semester I am seeing an interesting trend. All professors are male, as opposed to female (last semester), and there is a class in which there are way more guys (as opposed to all of the classes had more female last semester). One thing that seems to be similar is that the cluster of peers/classmates have already been formed in this class after the very first one, and even when I have had a great impression or had some great conversations with peers in the first class, I am excluded in the cluster, and am left to be my own.
I am just finding this phenomenon quite interesting. No anger, resentment, no frustration. (Maybe a tiny bit.) But and am finding how I feel like I am getting a massive respect from guys, while scaring girls.
