Midday report of Sunday. So I had this scavenger hunt thing signed, but I felt body aches all over my body this morning, so I had to cancel that...... Damn, it could have been interesting as I knew that there were going to be a few people I met from previous events would be there.
Instead, I went to church...... I don't know why, but it's almost as if I feel like I want/need to go out. I'm not really a church person, but I still felt like going, so I did it anyway.
I arrived there slightly so I sit at the back. Well, I have to say that there were a few attractive girls there. One of them, who might looked a bit overweight with coat on came in. She took off her coat, and damn, she had some great curve. Very good waist line, amazing butt. Her side book line was also looking great. [edited as per rule 4]
This got me thinking a little bit. Would I have gone out with the girl or the girls I saw in the church if I have seen them in the online dating apps/sites. Would I have even thought them attractive? I don't know, with so many different options available, and the disconnection from personal vibe/aura that can be felt in offline, I feel that it would not have been the case, and it gets me wondering about relationship, vibe, personality, feeling, and aura in general.
I also noticed that I am getting my heart weakening or more mellow with DMSI being on. I know that in the past, I was more mellow, more empathetic, weak hearted, and stuff like that. (Well, in the past, I had very difficult time passing a homeless person, and if I did I would have felt very bad for the entire day or two.) I feel that I am becoming more like that again. Perhaps, that's where my natural sexiness lies? I don't know.
How did I recognize weakening of hear/mellowing? Well there was animal rescue team/humane society that came in front of my APT. It was difficult to ignore the animals (the dogs had great temper/personality as well) and almost felt as if I had to stop, pet, talk more with animals and the people there, and even adopt the animals. However, I am not available to adopt any pets at the moment, so I just passed by. (I don't know I am now wondering if I could have just petted the animals and passed by..... But well, that feels like taking a chance away from potential adopters, who can have the interaction instead of I.)
At the same time, I am wondering if this is a side effect from skipping a day of DMSI. (I skipped last night, as I went to bed late, but wanted to get up early.) If all of these are part of resistances, then I feel that I have a very strong resistance, or I am just very resistant type.
I don't know I'm just mumbling here with what just happened so far.
Instead, I went to church...... I don't know why, but it's almost as if I feel like I want/need to go out. I'm not really a church person, but I still felt like going, so I did it anyway.
I arrived there slightly so I sit at the back. Well, I have to say that there were a few attractive girls there. One of them, who might looked a bit overweight with coat on came in. She took off her coat, and damn, she had some great curve. Very good waist line, amazing butt. Her side book line was also looking great. [edited as per rule 4]
This got me thinking a little bit. Would I have gone out with the girl or the girls I saw in the church if I have seen them in the online dating apps/sites. Would I have even thought them attractive? I don't know, with so many different options available, and the disconnection from personal vibe/aura that can be felt in offline, I feel that it would not have been the case, and it gets me wondering about relationship, vibe, personality, feeling, and aura in general.
I also noticed that I am getting my heart weakening or more mellow with DMSI being on. I know that in the past, I was more mellow, more empathetic, weak hearted, and stuff like that. (Well, in the past, I had very difficult time passing a homeless person, and if I did I would have felt very bad for the entire day or two.) I feel that I am becoming more like that again. Perhaps, that's where my natural sexiness lies? I don't know.
How did I recognize weakening of hear/mellowing? Well there was animal rescue team/humane society that came in front of my APT. It was difficult to ignore the animals (the dogs had great temper/personality as well) and almost felt as if I had to stop, pet, talk more with animals and the people there, and even adopt the animals. However, I am not available to adopt any pets at the moment, so I just passed by. (I don't know I am now wondering if I could have just petted the animals and passed by..... But well, that feels like taking a chance away from potential adopters, who can have the interaction instead of I.)
At the same time, I am wondering if this is a side effect from skipping a day of DMSI. (I skipped last night, as I went to bed late, but wanted to get up early.) If all of these are part of resistances, then I feel that I have a very strong resistance, or I am just very resistant type.
I don't know I'm just mumbling here with what just happened so far.
